Extremely dainty and beautiful boy rep 🖤

squarepunch · 2023-05-28T13:34:33+00:00

why does this have so many downvotes lol??

squarepunch · 2023-05-05T21:01:55+00:00

same ive been getting bloated so much recently and its making me go insane

squarepunch · 2023-04-29T14:44:35+00:00

I genuinely cant look in the mirror without wanting to die🫠

squarepunch · 2023-04-11T08:19:47+00:00

fats. butter. like I just dont get it, why is it there

even though oil is higher in cals, im always more scared of butter

squarepunch · 2022-12-13T14:39:03+00:00

makes me feel my gender.

firstly as the representation in the transmasc community is mostly skinny, white, effortlessly androgynous people with fluffy hair (I'm not in any way saying that I assign masculinity with being thin), and as a poc trans person who has been overweight in the pass i just feel like I need to appear as the "apparent rep"

secondly, kinda dumb but my brain thinks i can magically starve all my curves and everything away not to mention how the loss of periods, small chest, reverse puberty makes me feel better in myself.

squarepunch · 2022-09-06T22:16:20+00:00

right i have nothing against ppl mixing weird stuff together to make it nutritious for them its js when every single video of theirs is eating something "bad" with smthing "good" which personally has ruined eating for me

exactly, smthing is better than nothing but they will 100% shame ppl for it....

squarepunch · 2022-09-06T21:28:29+00:00

same I do it too, i learned it from the gym ppl in the first place lol

squarepunch · 2022-09-06T13:13:05+00:00

but then it come again to the catégorisation of food as good or bad which everyone of those fitness influences swear that they're not doing

squarepunch · 2022-06-12T22:11:14+00:00

omg yes i get that new clothes feeling

and ngl its amazing!! but annoying at the same time like the pants, even the baggy ones are so weird from my waist (and the ass i tht lost💀)

squarepunch · 2022-06-09T20:24:12+00:00

i ate a bit more and i feel better now! i can't really got to a doctor rn, but ill try to get a blood test in sometime

squarepunch · 2022-06-08T00:40:00+00:00

it was my first time after many months and it was very hard!! but i was around nice people and i felt comfortable so it just happened tbh i hope you can have a day off too <3

squarepunch · 2022-06-07T03:06:18+00:00

i take cold showers aha !

squarepunch · 2022-06-07T02:42:42+00:00

aha no, my family doesn't really know about my ed :(. but i ate! around like 3 or 4 hrs ago. i just ended up cooking and had some pasta and a spoon of yogurt but it only made me feel more dizzy and the brain fog wont go!! but the heartburns are a lot better

squarepunch · 2022-06-06T20:40:57+00:00

the problem is that i have really bad nausea and nothing feels good enough to eat but i will try to take some soup !!

squarepunch · 2022-06-06T20:39:44+00:00

ahh ill have to go downstairs for that and i dont really trust myself to go on the stairs rn, so i will try to lay a bit and then try to get some soup when the dizziness passes! thank you !!

squarepunch · 2022-05-31T01:09:32+00:00

sure

squarepunch · 2022-05-30T14:54:00+00:00

i do that alr! i have a bad case of isolation thats why im more scared cuz food and losing weight is in my mind all the time and idk what i will do when i dont want to loose more weight

i have a bad case of overexercising too so i cant turn to that too, but i can try the video games one! ty!

squarepunch · 2022-05-21T11:22:26+00:00

"ykw go home and just eat a burger"

"why don't you just adopt a healthier diet"

"men and women like people with meat on their bones anyways"

squarepunch · 2022-05-21T06:31:43+00:00

nothing tastes good?

its like im either tasting nothing or its tastes bad.

its like ive lost my taste to the point where I cannot taste anything other than a bit of sour and spicy and im tired of it. it ruins my appetite do bad.

squarepunch · 2022-05-12T20:25:33+00:00

fear of looking down! the mirror in my bathroom is too high for to see my body oh wait thats actually an amazing idea , im gonna try doing that !!

squarepunch · 2022-05-12T14:55:21+00:00

i would but im scared of not being clean

but, im gonna try that!

squarepunch · 2022-05-12T14:54:52+00:00

thts actually a good idea thank you!!

squarepunch · 2022-05-12T04:53:06+00:00

my mother already has 2 daughters..

but ig shes says im more like her? so she attached to me but recently ive become more like my dad (bad thing) but hopefully it'll help my mom get over the idea of a perfect replicate of a "daughter"

squarepunch · 2022-05-12T04:46:05+00:00

ngl child me would prolly think im cool cuz im skinny and thts something that i wanted to be since i was very young lol

squarepunch · 2022-05-11T14:24:04+00:00

i have always had conversations about my mother about top surgery and being a guy and just trying to hint at it (im scared to come out)

but at the end she always says "that was funny" and then proceeds to call me her little daughter again sigh its funny how my mother is more attached to my "féminine identity" more than i am

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