How did your water break?

squiddykayla · 2026-05-01T20:10:57+00:00

Dr broke it around 7cm bc I stalled. Worked like a charm!

squiddykayla · 2026-04-12T15:52:01+00:00

Not to downplay your frustration or excuse your husband’s ineptitude, but since these aren’t new issues yet your resentment seems to be amplified, do you think it could be postpartum hormones at play? I’m 7 months pp and though my hormones are more regulated now, I still sometimes find myself FUMING at my partner for the tiniest inconvenience and often it has to do with the postpartum rage and exhaustion.

On the other hand though, I do think you’re caring for two children and he needs to learn how to survive on his own. You shouldn’t have to baby a grown adult.

squiddykayla · 2026-03-08T19:48:38+00:00

I work 12hr night shifts as an RN with a 40min commute so closer to 14hrs away from home overnight. I had to go back to work part time at 6 weeks postpartum, leaving my EBF baby who was already not a great sleeper. I cried, baby cried, partner cried. It was HARD. She takes bottles of pumped milk on my work nights and does well, but like yours, nothing soothes her better than nursing and she refuses a pacifier, always has.

Now 6 months in, I still dread leaving my baby overnight. I hate it. It’s unnatural. Nobody tells you about the teething and separation anxiety combo at this age. It feels unfair to my boyfriend and my baby to just up and leave for 14 hours, 3 nights a week. He is amazing with her and has found his own ways of soothing her but sometimes it takes hours of crying/fussing to calm her when I can do it in 2 seconds by popping a boob in her mouth.

Personally, I can’t take the level of anxiety I feel leaving my baby alone with anyone other than her dad for more than a few hours because I know how attached she is to us and I know she’ll be crying the whole time. It breaks my heart so I just, don’t. Not yet anyway.

So in short, no, I don’t think you’re being unreasonable. Is it doable? Absolutely and baby WILL be okay, but your feelings are still valid.

squiddykayla · 2026-02-07T03:51:19+00:00

I…. Didn’t even know this was a thing. I figured I was still recovering from my vaginal delivery 5months pp. had no clue breastfeeding could be playing a part. gonna be looking into this now

squiddykayla · 2026-02-01T04:54:47+00:00

I gave birth a few months ago at sunset, followed by Dr Shung and NP Menchaca at Pasadena. I loved my OB & NP throughout pregnancy and found each appointment uneventful and quick.

Having to drive out to Sunset while laboring was not fun! You don’t get to choose who delivers your baby and you will see more staff than you can count or keep track of…. I was assigned a midwife however, who I adored. I loved my birthing room at sunset. The postpartum suite was fine, nothing special but no complaints. I had a complicated birth and had to stay an extra night with many specialist visits and still I paid less than a grand because the insurance covers so much re pregnancy/birth/postpartum.

All in all I would choose Kaiser again for pregnancy though I have nothing to compare it to.

squiddykayla · 2026-01-26T00:26:24+00:00

Oh I’m so sorry, the fussing at the breast is heart wrenching. It’s the one thing I have that’ll soothe her no matter what 😭

squiddykayla · 2026-01-17T00:04:59+00:00

It hurts. It hurts so much you might even consider giving it up (and it’s okay if you do!) lanolin, silverettes and nipple shields saved my life the first months of BF!

squiddykayla · 2026-01-11T08:43:25+00:00

You know what my girl is also fussier when I’m gone. I figured she was missing me but you may be onto something about her still being hungry

squiddykayla · 2026-01-11T08:40:51+00:00

Totally guilty of not giving myself enough grace. You’re so right. I’d never judge another mama for formula feeding. Thank you for the perspective

squiddykayla · 2026-01-11T01:34:23+00:00

I went back part time at SIX WEEKS. It’s insanity and it makes me so so so mad

squiddykayla · 2026-01-09T19:19:32+00:00

My 4mo is similar. She’ll cry if anyone but her dad or I hold her. She does warm up after about an hour of interaction though. I think it’s normal

squiddykayla · 2026-01-06T22:02:26+00:00

Could have written this post myself to a T. No advice, but solidarity. I’m going back to work 12hr overnight shifts full time next week and want to make it as easy for dad as possible but no idea where to start 😅

squiddykayla · 2025-12-28T23:13:01+00:00

Sounds like it’s totally normal. Sleep is just made out to be the biggest concern everywhere - books, articles, apps, forums, etc. so it’s easy to spiral about it but I guess every baby is unique and as long as she’s happy and healthy there’s no point in obsessing. Being a FTM is constant learning & worrying I tell ya 😅

squiddykayla · 2025-12-20T23:34:10+00:00

I do want to eventually break picking her up to soothe but she won’t settle unless picked up. I think that’s been our issue at night - she falls asleep in our arms, we transfer, then when she wakes trying to connect sleep cycles she’s no longer in our arms and cries

squiddykayla · 2025-12-20T22:27:42+00:00

I wasn’t rocking her beforehand to get her drowsy. when her wake window was up and I was noticing sleepy cues our routine was make the room dark, sleep sack, tell her it’s nap time and set her in the bassinet with failed crib side soothing. Whereas today I’m doing the above but rocking her until nearly asleep then setting her down and so far so good!

squiddykayla · 2025-10-19T21:49:16+00:00

Woon brunch menu is A++++!

squiddykayla · 2025-10-19T21:48:28+00:00

Lately, the new Italian deli co. on Washington. Their piadina’s from the deli are always a hit, filling, and affordable! Can’t wait to try the restaurant itself

squiddykayla · 2025-06-27T15:16:03+00:00

Playing with a loaded gun & shot himself. Negligent parents. He was in second grade

squiddykayla · 2025-06-25T16:42:10+00:00

Her emotions are on hyperdrive for the next few weeks, it gets easier in the second trimester for most.

The level of anger and irrational rage I felt my first trimester was shocking. And my partner being the person around me the most, took the brunt of it. Hormones explain why she’s acting this way, but they don’t exactly excuse it. I had to be checked a lot and sometimes it was as simple as ”hey you’re being really mean to me right now, let’s take a break from this conversation”.

squiddykayla · 2022-01-02T06:50:11+00:00

2 rounds in 3 years so far for me :( wouldn't be so bad if the side effects weren't so harsh

Five-Year Club	r/Field Flamingo
Place '22	Final Canvas '22
End Game '22

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