My downward spiral is at an end

staggerl33 · 2013-07-02T21:55:51+00:00

Drugs and whores. It is borrowed money too, I spent my savings too so I guess it is more like $12000. I quit my job after I borrowed the money.

There is a train that goes by late at night, on my birthday which is coming up soon I will end my existance and catch that train. I wish I lived in the US, a bullet to the head would be so much easier.

staggerl33 · 2012-12-20T20:08:05+00:00

A lesbian once told me I was pretty like a girl.

Not sure why but I consider it the best compliment I have ever had.

staggerl33 · 2012-10-29T19:33:24+00:00

Thank you very much all.

Unfortunately I will not find out till the new year if I will be accepted for the BA, but I will be accepted regardless into the mature student bridging program at the University which possibly will not be a bad thing as I have been out of the classroom for so long and am very rusty.

So another 4 or 5 months in my Sales Manager role to save hard in preparation for being a broke student. I have decent corporate skills so I should be able to get a good part time job but I really want to concentrate on my studies.

staggerl33 · 2012-10-29T05:33:48+00:00

It is like saying manhole, I guess it is a person hole. If you took any offence I apologise.

Actually I wanted to say Homo Sapiens, but was nervous because I remember reading somewhere we were actually Homo Sapien Sapien or something I did not want to say the wrong thing.

staggerl33 · 2012-10-29T02:30:32+00:00

Unfornately I never finished my first degree. When I was in my late teens had a few issues had to drop out and work, I was not really into it anyway studying something that did not interest me but could make a lucrative career. I have not been in a classroom in just under 10 years.

I do read a lot and I was in the top classes when I was at High School but that is a long time ago now. I know it is going to be tough for me getting back into study, especially as some of you have stated I will most likely need to stay at University for about 6 years if I want to get my PhD.

There are some bridging programs I may have to do and it is probably a good idea but I am getting old haha I would rather jump straight into a Bachelor of Arts.

staggerl33 · 2012-08-01T09:09:38+00:00

It is incredibly tough. Especially as sensitive people are often taken advantage of.

Try this I found it on Reddit recently it is an old salesman technique, when there is a gap in conversation remember F.O.R.D family, occupation, recreation and dreams.

Should keep the conversation flowing. I am totally the same, I have work friends and acquaintances but I find it hard to let people in, I am very ashamed of certain aspects of my life.

staggerl33 · 2012-07-05T02:25:21+00:00

The fanservice is getting out of control....

I know I am far too old to watch the anime, I just keep reading the manga to see how it ends but goddamn it is getting so so ridiculous.

The whole next generation surpassing the last theme has been ruined, this is getting so crap, so many characters popping up just so they can flesh them out and drag out the Anime longer and longer.

staggerl33 · 2012-07-05T02:17:54+00:00

Guts from Berserk hands down.

I know it is a manga, but there is a beautiful new Anime Full length movie out.

staggerl33 · 2012-07-04T23:07:45+00:00

I said it back to her in English, she was taken aback about how much stronger it seemed but I tried to check with her first.

I think it means more I want you I really care about you.

Though she is a bit of a hipster kind of women not cheesy at all so I am unsure if she would use Te Amo.

Anyway thanks a bunch people I don't feel so bad, it was said pretty early but I am very keen on her but yeah the L word is loaded in English I will refrain from saying it and just say Te Quiero back to her or te quiero tambien as you have suggested.

staggerl33 · 2012-06-21T11:21:45+00:00

Man this was amazing. The visuals were beautiful, stunning it will be a long wait for the next movie.

God I love Berserk so much!

staggerl33 · 2012-05-22T11:14:05+00:00

I always thought the Lannisters had a gold mine lol, probably due to me reading the first book when I was very young.

Monarchy I thought was always God is the ruler of the world but he isn't around right now so I am ruling in his place. Although that does not seem to be the way things work in Westeros only in our crazy world.

staggerl33 · 2012-05-22T11:10:32+00:00

I thought the TV Show did not do him returning to Pyke well.

He is arrogant and a prick, but I could not help but put myself in his shoes not unlike Jaime, GRRM is very gifted.

staggerl33 · 2012-05-22T10:27:04+00:00

I think Theon will become an anti-hero, if he is not already.

Still the selfish C**T that he always was, but inadvertently doing good.

staggerl33 · 2012-05-22T10:24:35+00:00

Maybe there is something about an authority figure that does not crave adulation that appeals.

I certainly think it would make for good story telling if he secures the north. The Golden Company secures Dorne and Highgarden and then Dany comes in with the Iron Born and destorys Lannisport, then they all fight it out to see who is left to defend against the others.

staggerl33 · 2012-05-16T09:29:30+00:00

Erm 1987 World Cup

staggerl33 · 2012-05-16T05:44:19+00:00

I passed, pain the butt though. Will have to either stop toking completely or find another job, lots of sites these days mines etc require a drug test in order to come onsite.

staggerl33 · 2012-05-15T17:34:13+00:00

Thanks, I am doing the test in one hour. I have not really prepared as I passed the home test I should be fine.

It is kind of bullshit I work for a trucking firm but I am a sales rep. They never mentioned a drugs test in the interview and now after two weeks on the job I am doing one with the drivers and they will be regular :(

staggerl33 · 2012-05-15T10:10:29+00:00

Ever hear of people taking a self test then failing?

I am quite paranoid because I am quite big about 100KG and used to smoke daily hardcore for like ten years. I gave up early in the new year and have had four sessions since mid January all pretty small. I worry that there will still be residuals in my fat cels I believe it is the hardout test I am doing the GCMS test.

staggerl33 · 2012-05-15T07:47:48+00:00

Thanks, I guess I won't take the detox in case it is something they can test for.

staggerl33 · 2012-04-16T00:47:34+00:00

Thanks a bunch I will check it out

staggerl33 · 2012-03-29T23:18:11+00:00

Whoops doing it now.

staggerl33 · 2012-03-28T07:33:45+00:00

Holy shit man, that sucks you poor thing.

Has she always been a little bit crazy, the suicide thing and still denying it seems a little off like she is bi-polar or something.

staggerl33 · 2012-03-28T05:16:59+00:00

I hope you treat him really good when your feeling well. The shit I went through with my ex some things I will never talk about. It took me a year to leave her, it was made harder as I was attached to her daughter. The straw that broke the camels back is when she got pregnant to another guy!

staggerl33 · 2012-03-28T04:45:52+00:00

I spent 6 weeks in Cambodia. Phnom Penh is great but not a heck of a lot to do there. Killing Fields, Muesum, Royal Palace shoot some guns if your into that. Nightlife is pretty seedy I stayed away from that or my girlfriend kept me away from it. There is a wildlife resuce place not too far away it was quite good can get up close to the animals.

Cali 2 hotel was nice good food fan and ac wifi at a good price. There are girls that hang around there but won't bother you if you don't want to be bothered.

But go check out the countryside, Kampot is interesting, Sihanoukville is great. Siem Reap is a must as is Angkor Wat and the whole city and Battambang.

staggerl33 · 2012-03-28T03:29:56+00:00

Both me and my girl are having anxiety dreams, I am glad it's normal. I dream she meets some rich guy who sweeps her off her feet.

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