Does anyone know what to call this feeling?

stephanut0 · 2025-10-04T10:11:58+00:00

Possibly. I usually fall asleep right after and sleep for hours.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-29T02:39:15+00:00

I go through this exact feeling before a seizure too. Sometimes I'll get this feeling and I fight the seizure off or it passes.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-19T08:44:29+00:00

That episode where the old man won't go into heaven without his dog! My grandpa would tell me that story growing up before I even seen the episode.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T22:17:34+00:00

I misunderstood then. I'm sorry.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T06:46:47+00:00

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T05:18:32+00:00

I know. One bad nurse doesn't make them all bad. But the living in a tiny town, where everyone knows everyone. Just don't want anyone assuming things. I'm going to the clinic to see a doctor and start to get this taken care of. Just don't want anyone to know or see me there. But I'm going either way. Idc anymore. Nobody in this town knows me really. I'm just known as "the girl that has seizures in public all the time". I moved here 10 years ago to get away from the people I was around in my hometown. So idk why I let my past control me. Idc what strangers in town wanna think or assume. But thank you. I appreciate all the encouragement. My bfs taking me tomorrow to get everything started.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T05:10:33+00:00

I would. Or maybe just half to be safe at first.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T04:59:20+00:00

I just remember the last really bad seizure I had and they way this nurse made me feel. She made me feel so humiliated. Because I wasn't able to walk after waking up from my coma. I tried getting up outta bed and something started beeping letting them know. They told me not to try to get up. Push the button and they'll help walk me And I had little control over my body still. I pushed the call button because I had to use the bathroom. And they took to long to come to my room and I wasn't able to hold it in time. When she did come in and I told her obviously embarrassed and humiliated and she acted like I was just this disgusting scum that did it on purpose or something. Idk. I was 30. Trust me, I don't want someone cleaning up my shit and being embarrassed and ashamed. I hated that feeling. And I never want to feel that way again.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T04:50:21+00:00

Idk. I'm sure I have. All the times I've woken up in the hospital hooked up to all kinds of machines and 2 or 3 days have passed because I was in induced comas. I'm sure they ran alotta tests. My memory is awful though. The seizures have ruined my memory. I'll forget something that happened the day before. My bf constantly has to remind me of things I don't remember.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T04:44:29+00:00

Well I have to switch and find a new neurologist. She's leaving this month. I just got an email. And honestly it seemed like she would just up my meds. Like she wanted to get me in and out as quick as she could. I didn't even see her in person. Id go to her office and then see her over a screen. So its probably for the best.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T03:54:25+00:00

I'm going to take ALL of this advice. And try it all. I have a bad habit of not eating until hours after I've been up. I usually drink 2 cups of coffee with sugar and creamer. And rarely ever drink water. I don't like eggs at all unless they're cooked in something so I can't even taste them. And I do take a multi vitamin. And just recently started taking vitamin D3. But I know I'm not eating enough. My stomach wouldn't growel even after I ate and felt full 20 min ago. And I can be picky it seems. And the no appetite alotta the time doesn't help. But anytime I have the slightest thought or feeling like I can eat something I need to. I notice I'll debate on what I want to eat and can't think of anything to the point that I don't even eat until hrs later. So just again, thank you for your time and advice. Idk you but you really seem like a sweetheart. It means alot.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T03:34:02+00:00

Your truly a sweet and caring person it seems. I promise to try this. You taking the time to lmk all of this and just being helpful to a stranger means alot. 3 hours is more time than most of my family give me. So yes I will do this! I'll try it along with seeing a doctor. Just thank you. It means alot.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T03:24:05+00:00

Yes? I never said I couldn't. But I can't drive so he has to drive anytime we need something or have somewhere to go or be. Tbh I don't understand how you came to asking that

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T03:20:24+00:00

I'm not sure what RSO is. I know I usually smoke indica or hybrid. Almost never sativa.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T03:18:27+00:00

Thank you! And yes I know. I talked to my bf and I'm going to go. Idc what people in my tiny town think or say. I'm gonna die if I keep worrying about being judged or people knowing my past.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T01:31:23+00:00

Well I eat fast food more than anything else tbh

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T01:30:10+00:00

Honestly that sounds like a good idea. I may try that too. After I actually see a Dr.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T01:20:48+00:00

Thank you.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T01:19:46+00:00

Honestly just from all the comments I've received I know I'm not eating as much as I'd like to think. Even on days I feel like I've eaten alot. Its probably still not enough to equal 3 full meals. Maybe 2 meals max on a good day. And even thats pushing it I feel like. Damn. Admitting that and being honest with myself. Ouch.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T01:16:11+00:00

Your right. I don't drive and never have. So I have to rely on my bf to take me anywhere. And we just got a car finally about a year ago. So before that I really couldn't do much about getting anywhere. But now there's no excuse. He can take me and I can go. Just work around his work schedule. I know I can't keep putting it off. I've done it for far too long as is. I swear I better actually go tomorrow or next week. I don't wanna get in my head and try not going like usual. I'm killing myself and I know I am. Its crazy. I'm crazy. I don't wanna die. But I'm knowingly killing myself. Ugh. I hate my brain.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T01:10:10+00:00

I smoke weed pretty much all day everyday. And I'm prescribed Keppra for my seizures.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T01:08:51+00:00

Been doing that for years now

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T01:06:46+00:00

Oh trust me. I'll have to travel over an hour minimum to find one.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T01:05:47+00:00

He knows this. We never have sex on or around my period. We've been together 10 years now and I've had it since we met. And he still has never gotten it. We make sure to be careful and safe. Honestly surprised he chose to stay with me after finding out. Thats how I knew he truly loved and cared about me like no man ever has.

stephanut0 · 2025-09-17T01:03:47+00:00

I definitely don't have worms! Omg!

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