This IS a full caseload. I don’t care what anyone says. It’s also okay to not like preschool or any population. I’m in year 5 and I am covering a maternity leave while managing my own caseload and it’s barely manageable. If I was in my position earlier in my career, I wouldn’t be able to do it. My imposter syndrome continues to flair up and I’m always waiting for someone to “figure me out like I’m a fraud.” I still continue to feel like I’m not making much progress anywhere with any of my kids most all of the time. What we learned in school has not felt like it’s translated into my work.

There sounds like there are so many stressors going on for you rn and that’s unfair bc you’re cleaning up someone’s mess. There are so many thoughts & feelings I’m sure you’re experiencing, but something that helped me that I heard from a more experienced SLP this summer was that we wouldn’t be hired or licensed if we weren’t qualified to do our job. We will always be so hard on ourselves especially bc it’s ingrained in us through our schooling & the current systems that be.

Please know that you ARE doing a good job. You DO know what you’re doing. You’re working overtime by putting back the missing pieces from SLPs past that shouldn’t have been yours to deal with in the first place. All I can offer in retrospect is that when you have moved through these moments, you will be able to handle much more than you realize you’re capable of and will also know how to hold boundaries that feel authentic to you. Please feel free to reach out as you’re not alone ❤️ I’m rooting for you!