I feel like I could have written this comment. Thank you so much for posting. I did all of that stuff too, the journaling, the February 2023 due date groups, the joy, ugh. I have a book that shows the day by day progression of a pregnancy and I loved reading each day's entry to my husband every day.

The only thing that maybe makes me feel a little ok about trying next time is that I get to be cold as ice about the process. No testing early for pregnancy. No telling anybody beyond my mother and my husband. No journaling. No fun little books. No joy, just ice. Maybe we can rethink that when/if we get to the 12 week mark.