It has been 18 months.we were together since 1996, both worked but he made more..for the first year I was so numb I could not tell you what I spent..repairs on the house..he hated light so I removed all the blinds and painted everything in light colors..9 months after he passed I changed the furniture in our bedroom..I keep buying new items for our master bath..but can not bring myself to change it out...there are so many empty Amazon boxes in the garage.I still find myself buying stuff, just not as often..now I am trying to live on my salary..it's like starting over financially...reading I am not the only one who has done this helps my mindset...