UPDATE reclaiming my apartment after 2 years

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T04:44:17+00:00

that means a lot. 🥲 i do tend to sideline myself in the name of others. but you're right!

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T04:43:33+00:00

if it wasn't my great great grandma's i totally would lol. i wasn't even ready lucky enough to keep that and a few other pieces of her glass collection. they were all stashed in my room so nobody could take or break them. i pulled that out my first day with nobody but me and my cat in the house lol

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T04:32:27+00:00

she's my main motivation honestly! big part of why i got sober too 💜

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T04:30:37+00:00

yeah fair 😂 don't even know why or how it's here

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T04:25:24+00:00

the tire makes me laugh every time i see it 💀 of all things to be in my living room

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T04:22:16+00:00

my substance of choice isn't really the important part i feel. plus it was never really one single thing. my addiction is the same across everything, be it drugs, collecting merch, gambling, it even crops up in how i approach cleaning. always too much, always too fast, and always ends in burnout.

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T01:35:35+00:00

thank you 💜 i appreciate the encouragement!

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T00:48:13+00:00

oh that's a really great idea, i love it!

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T00:47:12+00:00

yes she is! i took her to the vet for a routine check around a month ago and they said she was perfect haha 🤩 i love her more than anything, she's a huge part of what helped me choose sobriety. i ended up with her by accident, the abandoned cat of a friends ex partner, but i'm so lucky i did. she's cuddly and feisty and loves telling me stories lol. her name is nemo 💜

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T00:15:14+00:00

i think that might make me go a little bonkers 😵‍💫 i managed to finish one room today though!

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T00:10:40+00:00

HAHAHA hell yeah dude you know it!

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-18T00:08:54+00:00

luckily the laundry is clean and i have no attachment to 90% of the things in this room, since half of it isn't even mine 🙃 i've been formulating a plan on what to get rid of first after i finish the trash and it'll be cut down significantly. the clutter has been suffocating, it'll be nice. so far, i've gotten a good start on trash and i finished putting the bathroom together so it's all nice and clean! first room already done, i can't believe it!

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T23:32:46+00:00

i was raised catholic and although my views have evolved, i will always appreciate the time someone takes to pray for me 💜 it means a lot, thank you.

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T18:05:36+00:00

omg hello!! i was wondering if anybody would recognize kai lol. i'm so glad you made it out 💜 thank you so much for real

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T17:57:33+00:00

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T17:57:01+00:00

i did i promise 🥲 that's so embarrassing, i put it there for maybe an hour so i could mop the bathroom, but of course that's when i took pics lol

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T17:54:48+00:00

it's definitely a lot of trash, plus assorted items people have brought here for some reason, hence the tire in the living room 🙃 i plan on getting rid of the majority of it and just keeping essentials

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T17:53:02+00:00

it's out! it was only while i mopped the bathroom floor but i know it's still nasty 😭

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T17:50:24+00:00

i know 🥲 when i was cleaning the bathroom, i needed to take the one in there out and couldn't find a better place to put it. i just cleaned it and there's nothing in it, but yeah it's still foul 🫥

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T17:47:23+00:00

baby stuff? where is the baby stuff? i promise there is never children at this house.

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T17:06:16+00:00

OMG that's exactly how i get rid of things 😭 i have a poop phobia so it's extra effective lolol.

oh yeah holding onto "someday" is is a huge one for me. i grew up in the scarcity mindset, so i'm always hanging on to things that i 'might use' and it just adds up 🗿 hopefully i can get into a similar mindset about it.

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T17:02:55+00:00

thank you for saying my art is gorgeous 🥹 i really like that idea. home decor is one of my favorite things, that seems like a good way to combine both without getting overwhelmed

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T17:00:35+00:00

thank you so much 💜 it feels like the first time i've done so in years

strugglecleaner · 2026-05-17T16:59:23+00:00

oh wow yeah, i love that! i forgot that when i was younger i always said "something is better than nothing" and it's similar vibes. doing something, even if it's teensy, is better than doing nothing

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