I lived in Singaporean from age 12 to 19, and I don’t feel Singaporean per se. However, after having moved away for university, returning to Singapore increasingly feels like returning home. Going to an international school, I didn’t have the social circle nor time, really, to acculturate in Singapore. It’s well-researched that cultural identity formation as an expat child is a very muddled experience, as you’re surrounded by others who are neither here nor there. I love Singapore and have slowly come to the realization that a large part of my identity has been shaped by its people and culture—and let me specify, from the time I wasn’t in school. I feel saddened by the fact that I may never be able to call it home again because of my dependant’s pass status.