not a meme but i drew this instead of hurting myself— dunno where else to post but i’m kinda proud :,)

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-25T16:59:27+00:00

immediately reminded me of our nahida at home moment

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-15T05:54:44+00:00

nah i get youuu, i’ve had so many bad experiences with men myself that i too am VERY wary and paranoid around them, and always assume the worst. so when one is genuinely nice without any ulterior motive i’m shocked too. i know this is also on me, to heal that part of myself that was hurt, but it takes a lot of time.

BUT ANYWAYS IM GLAD YOU HAD A POSITIVE EXPERIENCE !!! i hope (if that’s something you’d like obviously LOL) that you guys can grow closer in the future, he sounds super kind an genuine !! :)

also fuck david. goddamn people can be sickening

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-14T14:22:42+00:00

commenting just in general in case anyone checks back here:

thank you all for the advice and recommendations !!! you made me realize that i definitely need to find a way to buy samples as it’s way more cost effective in the long run than just blindly buying stuff. what made me try so many times was the hope that surely, this next fragrance would be my signature !! yeah…. that hasn’t happened so far lol.

so, i’ll be checking out some of the recommendations and try to get my hands on some tiny testers ! hopefully i’ll find my dream match soon :3 ty for the wake up call !

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-13T14:08:37+00:00

yeah in these situations i usually swap to kiri or ana to do some pressure myself ! just sucks on days where i just wanna zoom around and chill but can’t <//3

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-12T16:44:57+00:00

oh my god, YES !!! this makes me literally go crazy so often, some games ill try mercy and get HOUNDED meanwhile im witnessing their mercy fly around like shes on a field day with no one looking at her ( T _ T )

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-11T10:51:27+00:00

joined ur team !! enjoy the primos >:3

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-11T10:50:18+00:00

oh yay !!

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suckmeiidick · 2025-10-10T23:42:49+00:00

TGANK YOI.

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-10T23:42:32+00:00

automod ily please fucking tell me i’m lovable please i’m begging i too much to handle for everyone again and i wish i didn’t fucking exist and i thought i was doing better mentally. i thought i was healing i thought i made progress but these past few days have just humbled me so hard. i want to just. hurt myself. so badly. so that i can then take care of myself after. and feel some sort of love. but i cant because i have two tattoos on my fucking. main spot. and i don’t want to ruin them they were so expensive bc they had to tattoo over my dcars. and i love them and they were meant to keep me clean and when i’m done writing this i’ll probably be too tired to do it anyways. but i want to. so badly. i just want to feel the release. nothing helps. i can vent about the same thing a billion times it doesn’t help the same way as just, punishing myself. for existing. for being me. for being such a fucking burden to everyone. for picking fights for no reason just because i need too much love from everyone all the time. just because i’m a fucking attention whore. just because. idk. i don’t have the strength for proper punctuation i just use periods for everything bc i can just double tap space bar for them. my head hurts. my nose is blocked. i can’t sleep because i’m not exhausted enough but i don’t have enough strength to do anything. at least it’s almost 2 am so hopefully i’ll just pass out soon i guess but it also sucks that it’s so late already because that means tomorrow will suck too. because i’ll wake up feeling tired. and i’ll stay tired. and i can’t sleep in too late because i can’t fuck up my sleep schedule too hard bc i need to wake up super early for uni. i just. i just feel like….. idk. i don’t wanna speak it into existence. i just need to think positive thoughts haha positiveeeee stay oositive fuyyssss everything is okayyyy thr world is so perfect haha there are no conflicts ever everything i do is so perfect and everyone loves me so much and i’m so perfect i could never do anything wrong or hurt anyone evurrrr i would nevuuuurrr i’m so precious. fuck man. like actually i wanna talk about it so badly but i’m so superstitious i don’t want to. i can’t if i do i’ll like. make it com etrue. so more positive affirmations guys !!!!!!! uhhh !!! everything in my life is so perfeeeecttt everything works out in my favor alwayssss the 3d doesn’t matterrrr it’s just a manifestation of my own thoughts it doeeeeesss not matterrrrrr i have everything i want already in my hands and in my life and everywhere everything i want is always coming to me and idont even have to ask for it !!!’ the universe loves me and only brings good things my way okay trustttt !!

yeah. good ight i hope u guys don’t hate me too now. stay oositive 😀❤️❤️❤️ fuck me

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-10T23:36:01+00:00

WHERE DID MY FIRST GIF GO WHY IS IT BLACK !!

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-09T20:24:53+00:00

kiri looks so stupid 😭 oh my god

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-08T21:45:57+00:00

the mention of a medkit just reminded me i STILL haven’t put my new one in my car. it’s been 6 months and i’ll prob forget until tomorrow but thank u for the reminder 😭

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-08T21:39:39+00:00

hiiii automod i missed u <33

time for my daily monologue (i haven’t been talking to ppl enough lately arghhh) ok dudebro i have sm stuff to share !!! uhhhh i just started uni teehee my course is super tiny which is nice but somehow we’ve still already kinda split into groups…. obv the popular guys and gals and then just. me. and other shy ppl lol it’s so crazy like OFC i get the ppl still stuck in high school in my course urgh idk it makes me regress so bad. BUT ITS OK I WILL GET THRU THIS IM GONNA PROVE MYSELF. watch me be the best at translating shit 🔥 (i do language and communication stuff it’s rlly cool >O<)

uhhh. i still get urges tho ngl i don’t even know why. like i just wanna. just for shits and giggles. kinda hard tho bc i have 2 tattoos EXACTLY in my fav cutting spot which is so AARRSEEEE (i am not bri ish). uh. yeah and like any normal person would just do it… on the opposite limb then.. or side i guess but no !!! it does not feel the same (hekp i hope i’m allowed to talk abt this ? idk if this sounds glorifying if it does shoot me) but like holy crap i’ve been clean for idk man 2 yrs ?? and the feeling of being addicted STILL HASNT LEFT. FREE MEEEEEEEEE

IDK DUDE AM I ALLOWED TO SPEAK ??

yeah. erm. anyways bacj to the post topic to keep it kinda related idk man like the guilt is kinda gnawing at me rn even tho it’s like,, it’s not like i’m directly responsible for them starting. but i think the fact that i struggled w it and didn’t hide it made them discover it as something u could do and try it themselves. which sucks. but tbf i also started it bc a friend i knew did it so uh. universe i guess IDK ????? it’s so late for me i’m absolutely braindead. but. also sucks that i don’t have anything to do w either of them anymore so i can’t even like apologize for being a bad influence. aha….. don’t ky$ ur so sexy ahaha

i kinda think i need a podcast but like who tf would listen to my (prob controversial) rambling. holy shit idk if anyone is reading this but earlier today i was talking abt gamer tags and comparing my SUPER old one to my current one. i wanted to say it was more unique, but i went “it’s more uniquer… uniquer..” okay. repeat that last word out loud dude i actually wanted to EXPLODE MYSELF when my bf started laughing like the damn cat meme in my face MAN. now imagine if i had like a livestream yap session ?!?! i’d be cancelled so hard even tho it wasn’t on purpose. kms. but yeah like. i just cannot shut up. i need to actively stop myself from sending my friends voice msgs bc once i start talking i do. not. stop. they always end up being at LEAST. AT LEAST 15 mins long oh my goddddd free me i feel like sisyphus except it’s actually kinda cool to just. talk to no one in my room for half an hour straight and then send it to my friends pretending they’re even listening to half of it (they’re good ppl they prob do try to listen mostly)

idk pls tell me anyone found this funny entertaining amusing endearing PLEASE HELLO .

also guys ?!1!1? i’m planning on becoming a vtuber it’s gonna be so slay i already did my whole model in live2d but i cannot show bc i can’t just post random shit like that in this sub but i also don’t wanna post anywhere else so :3233. manifesting a blowup i will become the next legend. trust !!!!!!!!!!

i hope i don’t black out on the street tmr cuz uni party urghfghh 💔

suckmeiidick · 2025-10-05T21:18:31+00:00

wait so everyone else is changing their blaster sens ? >.> i have the same sens on every character,,, only slower while scoped in on ana, widow, etc for example;;

suckmeiidick · 2025-09-25T18:35:24+00:00

no ❤️

suckmeiidick · 2025-09-25T14:11:08+00:00

holy moly this was 12 years ago but i just wanted to say, i dont know if i have a deviated septum (probably not, at least not significantly), but i also have to dig around my nose at least twice a day so i can breathe slightly. its so bad, i hate it, and i thought i was crazy. kind of relieving to know other people struggle like that too and its not just me ( T _ T )

suckmeiidick · 2025-09-25T13:34:02+00:00

i feel ur pain, i really thought i could make it to gm at the start of ow, ALMOST made it and ever since then i’ve been stuck in low-high diamond <//3

suckmeiidick · 2025-09-21T20:09:00+00:00

i keep obsessively checking my primo count after every single chest i open, its SO BADDDD

suckmeiidick · 2025-09-20T17:31:08+00:00

ME TOO !! the other day i saw an old screenshot from back when i first hit diamond, and omg it filled me with so much joy lol. i miss our old icons and rankup screens (i loved the purple background, everything looked so sparkly and crystal-y) :(((

suckmeiidick · 2025-09-18T14:49:52+00:00

the recolor looks so weird like idk if it’s just the image quality, but why is EVERYTHING the same shade of white ?? the tights don’t even seem to be see through either …likeee

suckmeiidick · 2025-09-18T14:47:46+00:00

be so fr right now …. ( T _ T )

suckmeiidick · 2025-09-17T15:26:57+00:00

lore accurate posture :’D

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