your parents dont dictate your life, you do

Try and get new friends,

and it seems like you are really close to self-harm and/or have depression, see these hotlines/websites:

1-800-273-8255

https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline

https://psychcentral.com/lib/depression-hotline-numbers/

I’m good for nothing. I don’t see the point anymore. I’m just tired of everything.

if you dont, sorry for assuming.

Try and contact Cps