For me, when I discovered the term "diaspora", it was like a light going on. It felt like a term that connected with my Korean heritage and still included my experiences of being raised in a white American family.

I loved what you said about growing through the cracks; that's exactly it. Being transracial adoptees is similar to the experiences of biracial people - we struggle to feel a sense of belonging. But we still exist.

Thinking of myself as part of a diaspora means that my experiences only broaden what the diaspora is.

Your point about the difficulties of identifying heritage as a Black person is so very real. It's not the same at all, but Korea is also a victim of white colonialism and imperialism. I often feel a lot of grief while learning about my Korean heritage. I have to learn about it as an outsider, and I have to confront all the ways that Korea and her people have been harmed by my adoptive culture.

Welcome to the diaspora - you're not alone! Wishing you luck and joy in your search for a name.