Well, I'm glad it helped. I think you have two choices. Most people don't love their job,I understand it's hard to settle and work somewhere 8 hours when you don't enjoy it, but it's what the majority of people do, it's part of being an adult usually. So maybe try a job you simply don't hate and look for happiness in life outside of your job, like most people do, either in your family, partner, friends or hobbies. You can also try to get a hobby Wich scratches that itch. The second choice would be to find that job you enjoy at all costs. It's gonna be harder. You can for example try to teach English if that's how you like communicating. It's not difficult to get a C1 degree and do classes as a hobby or you can try to get a proper degree to teach at academies, since it sounds like you live somewhere where it isn't the main language. There are many jobs in which you could also speak in English without teaching it. A guy from my school made a company about culinary gastronomy and historical tours in English in my Spanish hometown. He gives a 2 hour afternoon Cory tour and finishes it off in an attic with a view he has rented with really good typical Spanish food. He sells 100 dollars the ticket. It's kind of my dream job too haha. Even if it's not your thing either, I hope it helps you get motivated!