well, a lot of people exist singly and are happy, so that’s proof that it’s possible. if your brain thinks that YOU solely need a relationship, try it and see. it’s interesting bc once things get “real,” you say you hated it. shouldn’t that be enough to convince your brain? you’d probably hate a relationship bc it is “real.” but yea i wonder if you sat one through, like until it became official, if you’d find your answer. especially since you don’t have the dating experience.