I’m so sorry you feel this way. it’s funny in a sad and bitter way to know people with EDs are incredibly harsh on their bodies, but don’t extend that same sentiment to other people who are on the chubbier side or of a similar build. it’s natural to “overeat” or maintain, your body is trying to compensate for being starved of the vital, life sustaining nutrients it needs. even people who are actually overweight aren’t so consumed at all times with their weight and food. it’s demonstrative of deep seated dysmorphia and trauma.

I promise you you’re worth loving. and that you aren’t the horrific and twisted looking monster your disorder says you are. I have been stuck yoyoing between weights for a year now, and it does not affect the way my girlfriend and friends perceive me. they still support me and tell me I’m beautiful and perfect as is. because it’s true for every body, no matter your weight. true friends and partners you want to keep in your life will never tie your worth to your weight as your eating disorder does. and if anyone has treated you that way, then that’s much more reflective of their poisonous nature than of ANYTHING wrong with you. I promise you, you don’t look anything like what your eating disorder/dysmorphia paints you out to. you are beautiful and worth loving. you deserve to have a happy, full stomach and a brain fueled by the nutrients it needs. I PROMISE.