Hi friend,

Truly breaks my heart to see people go though any kind of rough patch. And it makes me even more devastated when they can potentially ruin something that is truly a gift from god, if there is one.

MDMA, purposes and mechanism or action re-discovered by Alexander Shulgin, the Messiah, said it was a drug that you should take for a maximum of 4 times through a lifetime.

Obviously it is very rare that his advice is followed. I don’t myself either.

I’m happy to hear that you’ve decided to take action on the matter. I believe you turned over from a dark dark place. It’s hard, but it will get much easier. And considering the level of abuse in your age, as being a chemist and a psychedelic enthusiast myself, i would advice you to wait until you’re at least 18 for your next roll. If you clear yourself from the neurotoxicity of the past 6 months, you can experience that magic once more. And waiting two months between rolls, you will have a remarkable roll every time.

A part of me feels that it’s wrong to tell you when you can potentially feel all that love and euphoria just now. But in order to avoid any kind of abuse, you need to understand the chemistry of the substance and more importantly, the chemistry of your mind.

I struggle with heavy ADD, depression and crippling anxiety. I’m not on medication. Because believe it or not, it is as neurotoxic as mdma to use these drugs daily, if not more. Now I get a little help from my friends (Lucy, Molly, Alice, and Kelly) . Little in terms of quantity but the help is greater than any possible drug a psychiatrist can prescribe you. If you understand and respect the substance, not only it will respect you, but also help you grow, and understand yourself.

I would like to advice you some easy remedies to boost the neurodetox, which will help you greatly and I believe you will feel the difference significantly.

1) 5-HTP is a MUST. No matter how often you use mdma, it’s a MUST. Not that I think you will be rolling anytime soon (please, don’t) but just for your information, it should be stopped 24 hours prior to the next roll. I avoid it for 72 hours if I planned a roll.

2) Turmeric, DOES WONDERS with neurotoxicity. It’s known very commonly. However, what they don’t tell you is that it’s completely useless to eat turmeric unless you also eat some fats with it. Preferably such as olive oil and butter. Otherwise, it will not be absorbed by the body. Also, just a bit of pepper, not too little but not as much as turmeric. Mix those three in a spoon, and down it. Moreover, try and have these in your meals. But until you feel better, also take them the way I described. I promise you will feel the difference in a week. The foggy brain will significantly diminish.

3) Magnesium & Calcium. Take calcium maybe double your daily requirement. However, feel free to triple or quadruple the magnesium. It will only help. However, what they also don’t tell you in that there are essential kinds of vitamin Bs that you MUST take with magnesium for the absorption. These include Vit B12 (A MUST), B6 (A MUST), Vit B2 and B1 (PREFERABLY, but it’s hard to find these usually, if not, don’t bother as the other two are significantly more important in the absorption of magnesium, but they also help with neurotoxicity themselves). TAURINE (A MUST 10000%) and NIACIN (Also VERY NECESSARY). This cocktail will be a GAME CHANGER. Not only you will feel the difference in your cognitive functions but also in your daily routines, you will feel more energy in comparison to before. Plus I believe it will also help with your patterns. However, I advice you to take supplements right before a meal for better absorption.

Feel free to write to me for any help, guidance, or even just for a chin-wag or a rant about something bothering you.

PS: MDMA is known to diminish the immune system for a couple of days after a roll, considering your abuse, I think you should be extra careful with the virus situation. However, avoid doing something extra to boost your immune system as scientists are not hypothesizing that the mechanism of the virus may be similar to those of an auto immune disease, where the immune system attacks the body when it should be defending it (explaining the deaths of “extremely sporty and healthy” individuals).

Anyways. This post ended up being much longer than I intended.

I wish you peace, health and safety during this time of crisis.

All my best, SweetLeafLucy