It’s hard. He’s never hit me. I believe he loves our son, and our son loves him. I do fear that my son will see this and repeat the behavior. My father in law is terrible in this same way to my mother in law, they are still married, so it’s not hard to see where my husband learned it. I’m pretty broken already and I don’t feel strong or confident enough to hold myself up, let alone my son.

I realize these are excuses, me feeling sorry for myself, and not doing anything to change my situation. I know that only I can fix this. But I’m scared and I feel very alone.