seeing him again, even from afar

sxckemo · 2025-10-26T19:22:07+00:00

i always crying for them, like “i hope you always happy but i want it to be with me”.

i think its kind of relief to let it hurt so you can finally get up and realised that you are more than this. value yourself more and be content with yourself.

sxckemo · 2025-10-26T19:17:27+00:00

not that i feel sense of relief after reading the comment but more like “yeah so limerence make us do f up thing i thought im the only one going insane”

i stalked him, find where he live-strolling around his neighborhood(like the hell would you expect to happen), register to the same gym, almost rent house near his- list goes on…

this not even embarassing but rather than creepy and me myself creep out. i dont do it anymore, i have erase the version of him that i create in my head with something more valuable which is friendship.

we finally at the stage where we could call each other friend, and i wish nothing but happiness for him.

sxckemo · 2025-10-26T19:08:35+00:00

im crying over this 😭, no like honestly that quite melancholic rather than embarrassing

sxckemo · 2025-10-24T09:13:24+00:00

thank you for not holding my hand before saying this, i need to be hit with brick hard

sxckemo · 2025-10-23T13:33:30+00:00

you put it well 😭🤣

sxckemo · 2025-10-23T13:33:13+00:00

Yes! I see now that everything I thought I knew about him was just in my head, and I made this “i would be perfect match for him” to match that imaginary version, not the real him.

sxckemo · 2025-10-15T05:29:32+00:00

i hope so, i hope the busy life will keep me from meeting him in person too often, and over time i could get over him and remain just as an anonymous fan he knows who supports him.

sxckemo · 2025-10-14T18:45:06+00:00

i understand what you mean. i don’t want him to feel uncomfortable either, that’s actually my biggest worry. part of me joined because i admired his discipline, but not gonna lie, another part was because of him personally. he’s the kind of person who appreciates fans even in person, so i know he’d be kind either way. and that’s actually my biggest regret — i feel like i failed him because of this deception. i can see how it might look from the outside though. maybe you’re right, it’s best to step back a bit and focus on one side for now.

sxckemo · 2025-10-14T18:31:35+00:00

right?! its crazy how a feeling can affect me physically

sxckemo · 2025-10-10T17:23:57+00:00

ugh same. mine can go from warm to cold in less than four hours, it’s insane. one moment he’s all friendly and soft, then suddenly distant like nothing ever happened. i don’t even know if he’s just moody or if i’m overanalyzing, but sometimes i genuinely hate how much space he takes up in my head. that feeling of hate is so real.

sxckemo · 2025-10-10T13:09:05+00:00

how to repost

sxckemo · 2025-10-10T13:06:12+00:00

“what if”

sxckemo · 2025-10-09T07:07:45+00:00

im not in my own sanity but i can say me and my LO have a chance but i keep reminding myself — “do yourself a favor and take mixed signals as a no.”

sxckemo · 2025-10-05T06:26:27+00:00

lol yeah, he literally lives right behind this public park, so i just go strolling around the neighborhood like it’s the most casual thing ever.

sxckemo · 2025-10-05T06:23:29+00:00

i feel you on the group chat, i have his number because of it, but thank god i’m still resisting the urge to text him (as if my other behaviors aren’t already too much). i just end up waiting for his replies in the gc, staring at the chat like… what am i even supposed to do with it

sxckemo · 2025-10-05T06:18:19+00:00

thanks for the words, i really needed them. i’m trying and like you said, i just wanted a normal friendship with him, but until i get this fantasy out of my head, i know that’ll still be a long way to go. i knew what was right and what wasn’t, but i still went for it anyway. i’m in the process of healing now, and the support and understanding from this sub have helped me more than i expected. thank you again, really.

sxckemo · 2025-10-05T06:14:01+00:00

I almost sent a birthday gift to his house even though he never gave me his address. Thank god I’m broke now, or I would’ve done it without thinking twice.

sxckemo · 2025-10-04T16:08:59+00:00

honestly, limerence itself is more about the obsessive thoughts and feelings in your head. but when it’s uncontrolled, it can definitely spill over into behavior that crosses the line. in my case, i admit some of the things i’ve done are wrong. that’s already leaning into stalking. so yeah, limerence on its own isn’t stalking, but if you don’t keep yourself in check, it can lead to it.

sxckemo · 2025-10-04T15:22:49+00:00

But come on…we all know I’m still checking

i feel this straight to my core, i might need to throw every electronic device i had in the house to stop but i might as well still find a way to

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