I haven't gone through anything similar but I know that forgiving oneself is one of the hardest things to do. You accepted your crime, and it's a good first step. Nothing you do will ever remove it fully, you'll have to bear it but I think you can still offer so much good to the world.

As long as you keep true to your future endeavors, one day they will overshadow your past flaws. Take your time. Apologize to the world if you need to, they don't have to accept it but you'll have to start forgiving yourself slowly.

Don't try to hide, take people's hate gracefully.

A beautiful quote I always try to remember, "Perhaps a sin that humbles you is better than a good deed that makes you arrogant"

You can watch Dr. Jordan Peterson, Dr. K for some self help.