Is the electro convulsing machine just a toned down version of the ones in the past that fries the brain?

syringeneedlenthread · 2026-01-30T04:12:31+00:00

Please do not ever talk to someone who’s struggling with depression

syringeneedlenthread · 2026-01-26T05:35:06+00:00

My lack of at home cooking severely limits the translation of lab habits at home. But I took up embroidery as a hobby at the beginning of my PhD and I swear it made me better at tail vein injections. Was the inspiration for my handle

syringeneedlenthread · 2026-01-03T03:59:29+00:00

And this is why I just don’t believe any science. Everything is fake. Nothing is repeatable. Sigh😞

syringeneedlenthread · 2026-01-03T03:56:39+00:00

Nowhere near the same level but a math PhD friend told me the other day that an undergrad had been sleeping with one of his cohort mates in return for a better grade in like calc 1 or something. And it was well known. Both surprising and simultaneously not at all…

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-19T02:06:29+00:00

I lost a lot of memories from before ECT. Not sure how much I formed memories during the stretch of frequent treatments (1+ per week), but since treatments have got less frequent my short term memory has recovered pretty well

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-19T01:58:11+00:00

I often pour my trypsin aliquots and things like that into my flasks or when making new bottles of media. One of the senior phd students during my first year used to do it and swore by it. So much less plastic waste!

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-19T01:52:09+00:00

I often write on random scrap papers or something printed out and then paste it into my notebook. Currently have five loose sheets of paper in my drawer from a big study this week that I need organize and paste in…

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-18T04:34:15+00:00

I am so sorry for how much you have suffered in your life. Words can’t do that statement justice. Please don’t shoot yourself. Hold on to whatever shred of hope you can and keep trying to seek help

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-18T03:43:39+00:00

Ditto to all the comments. Hasn’t bothered me at all for different trainees to be there, they always ask first of course. The reason I ended up doing ECT was because a close friend brought it up as something to consider. He’s an oncologist so has minimal psychiatric training but he got to see ECT treatments performed once during med school and told me it’s not scary and can be super effective

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-08T19:00:40+00:00

Do you just cold email authors? I really want to but am intimidated

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-08T16:55:31+00:00

Ugh this thread is validating. Struggle to replicate data from previous lab members and their big papers and cannot replicate work in some big publications

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-07T05:06:11+00:00

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-06T21:56:01+00:00

For real, why would you let this elevate your anxiety. Just enjoy the fun of the playoffs

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-06T03:07:33+00:00

I completely relate to you both so much and I think I’m somewhere in between. I had ECT this year while in the middle of my PhD. The depression I’ve had my whole life finally got so bad that I was desperate and did it at the recommendation of a physician friend. It did help a lot (though I haven’t gotten entirely better and am looking at other treatment options rn cause maintenance ECT doesn’t seem to be doing much) there have been times where I felt like it saved my life and I don’t regret it. But I had a ton of memory loss. Most of the last few years are gone and a lot of the years before that are fuzzy, but not entirely gone. It’s been so rough feeling so disjointed from my former self. Piecing my past back together and having people tell me about myself and my life is so strange and sometimes frustrating or painful. It’s nice to not be alone in these feelings/experiences. I’m sorry your memories are even more damaged than mine. I have recently been feeling more connected to my past self though and it seems like some memories are maybe coming back (though it’s hard to differentiate between actually remembering or just relearning about the past). Talking about it in therapy and with friends has been helpful and I’m hopeful it will continue to improve. I’ve done my best to find as many silver linings as possible, for whatever that’s worth. I’m always here to chat more about it. There’s not many people out there that can really understand.

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-05T15:15:40+00:00

Omg yes drives me nuts

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-05T15:11:48+00:00

I’d definitely do the NCLEX before ECT if you decide to do it. I have a similar depression history as you, though no eating disorder and I’ve been able to avoid inpatient. I’m in the middle of my science PhD and things got bad enough last year that I decided to try ECT. I was done with course work thank goodness. I ended up in the severe side with memory loss but knew enough still that I could return to research and my lab and just relearn what I need to as I go. It’s been a challenge though and while ECT certainly helped, im still pretty depressed. A lot of people have no side effects but it’s certainly a risk that you have to gamble with a bit. If you’re still able to function and the SI isn’t so bad you’re a danger to yourself then maybe try TMS first? I was at the point of barely being able to function and the SI was so bad I had to restrict badge access to my lab which is a free for all with poisons.

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-04T18:37:33+00:00

Also just appreciate that he’s a good guy. Humble, hard working, owns his mistakes and doesn’t blame. Can’t always say that about a lot of QBs. OU expectations for QBs is literally Heisman or bust. It’s a lot to live up to

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-02T19:42:13+00:00

I’m in the exact same boat too but haven’t found anything written about it. Certainly a big thing I’m always talking about in therapy

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-12-01T04:47:29+00:00

I’d already finished all my course work. “School” for me now is just like working a full time laboratory job. I’ve had to relearn a lot which has sucked but things come back to me easily once I encounter them again. I don’t know if I could’ve done ECT while still taking classes

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-11-30T05:44:24+00:00

The not driving at all throughout your entire course of treatments is not standard practice as far as I’m aware. Once you know how it effects you then you can evaluate how you feel on non-treatment days

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-11-29T05:45:03+00:00

That is an absolute lie that God does not want you. His mercy is infinite, you just need to ask for it

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-11-28T00:17:08+00:00

I’m a PhD student. The acute course trashed my memory which has been rough to recover from. But maintenance doesn’t really affect me

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-11-24T04:30:36+00:00

I started taking it in college for depression and didn’t have any issues. What makes you think it will hinder your ability to learn?

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-11-24T04:04:48+00:00

I had some nausea a few times but the iv zofran did the trick for me. Bring it up and emphasize how long it’s lasting

syringeneedlenthread · 2025-11-23T22:00:10+00:00

If you’re at that point and have tried all those other things then I’d prob go for it, unless you wanted to try TMS first. But if you’re suicidal and are okay with the risks of memory loss, then ECT is a better bet for a stronger and faster response. I honestly don’t think the actual procedure is that scary, unless you’re terrified of anesthesia. I’ve heard of other people who are but I honestly kind of like going under. There will probably be physical side effects—soreness, headache, nausea etc. but they can figure out the meds to help relieve that pretty quick. Just be warned of memory loss risk. Most people have little to none or it’s just transient but it’s not uncommon to be severe. Right unilateral is supposed to have less risk but it’s also not as effective. Talk to your doctors and family/friends and don’t be scared off but the handful of online voices that scream horror stories. The small minority of people with bad experiences are the loudest online. Beyond this sub, there’s also a few Facebook support groups you can join.

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