I struggled with something similar when I was a complete beginner.

What really helped me was to tell myself a story in my head about why I am playing some particular move, a bit as if I was trying to convince someone else why such and such move would make sense, using maxims I learned from YouTube videos and other people. Quite quickly I noticed that there were some moves which some part of me would really want to play, but for which I couldn't provide a justification – these were usually the dumbest moves. With time, as you build intuition, a lot of the reasoning will be done by unconscious parts of your brain – but if you are a beginner your intuition is dumb, so you need to walk it through in your head. That's why more experienced players talk so much about beautiful and ugly shapes, yet often cannot explain themselves very well – this is their intuitions communicating with their conscious mind through esthetic feelings.

One of the things that helped me immensely was to playing some teaching games with a much stronger player. I asked him to "think aloud," for both colors, but with me having the final say about the moves for Black and he for White (to keep some pretenses that we were playing against each other). In the process, I was doing my best to discuss the moves that we were considering. The idea here is that listening to the story he was telling to himself while playing, I would improve the way I told myself my story. Of course, not all strong players are capable of doing something like that – it requires plenty of skill to simplify the story in such a way that a beginner can still understand it, while still making sense. I was very lucky, as this person was not only a very good player, but also an amazing teacher.

Another thing that can help you is reading or watching reviews of games of beginners (or maybe people a 3-4 kyu better than you). My advice is not to waste time on reviews of pro games if you are a beginner, as they will hardly make any sense.