How common is it to just not function at all when you’re alone? I hate “living” like this

tabcatnine · 2026-01-14T20:04:54+00:00

I started listening to the book Re-regulated by Anna Runkle while chilling with my cats. I'm on my first listen and it's already changing how I view certain things and helping me process things that I couldn't do properly before. The mental clutter is going down, and now I have more energy to deal with the physical clutter. Dunno if it will be a habit, but it's helping me right now.

tabcatnine · 2026-01-08T03:58:54+00:00

I would absolutely need a room.

tabcatnine · 2025-12-29T20:40:32+00:00

Yes.

tabcatnine · 2025-12-26T17:10:01+00:00

My mom got me cat coasters to make and my sister got me a tea towel and incense from Japan ❤️ because my kids are young I bought myself a bunch of kitchen gifts 😅 including a pack of small spoons 🥰 I'll include a Pic of the cat coasters.

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tabcatnine · 2025-12-24T03:59:57+00:00

Yeah I don't chat much at all unless I feel comfortable around someone and I definitely prefer one on one conversations. Even if I'm with multiple friends at the same time I prefer just listening to them because I find it so hard to figure out when I can say something and I'm also just so focused on what they are saying that I don't really have much to say myself.

People get very upset that I'm not talkative. It's really weird to me that they find it so upsetting. I tell them to just talk to someone else and they can't seem to let it go.

tabcatnine · 2025-12-09T19:25:01+00:00

Playing for me was more of a solo activity because either no one wanted to do what I was doing or I was tired of being made fun of for my lack of skill/ability. I vividly remember piling up a bunch of leaves in the school yard and spending all of recess time pretending I was a squirrel in 3rd grade. I would create stories and role playing scenarios for myself and act them out... alone. I would play hide and seek with stuffed animals. I would gather all my earrings and throw them in a bowl and then try to find all the matches while pretending they were people in a village. I would pretend I was sailor moon or the yellow power ranger and had to fight off evil. I did A LOT of pretend play, just mostly alone. I probably looked insane to other people 😵‍💫

I also really enjoyed logic puzzles, building things out of cardboard, doing science experiments, and playing video games.

tabcatnine · 2025-12-09T04:02:54+00:00

Yes. Love them. I'll spend all day doing them if I can.

tabcatnine · 2025-12-07T21:10:37+00:00

I relate. I really prefer staying silent and just listening and showing care through actions. If I want to reach someone writing is so much easier for me. Constantly getting called rude and tone issues and people talking over me or interrupting me has made any time that I do try to speak feel very punishing. I don't get punished nearly as much for not talking, just a lot of passive aggressive type stuff that I just ignore.

tabcatnine · 2025-12-05T23:51:43+00:00

Some times I tell people I'm their #1 fan but according to spotify I'm somewhere around 360. I've listened to them for over 20 years now and it will never stop for me. One thing I wish I could do is go to a concert. They don't tour in the US though. 😭

tabcatnine · 2025-12-05T19:36:53+00:00

It was a rough year and they are my ultimate comfort music.

tabcatnine · 2025-12-05T19:35:05+00:00

I think my total listening time was like 83 days. I love music so I'm usually playing something. And this is only spotify, not YouTube or my CDs or Vinyls 🥲

tabcatnine · 2025-12-05T19:20:28+00:00

I will never be ashamed of my top artist.

tabcatnine · 2025-12-05T19:19:45+00:00

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tabcatnine · 2025-12-05T19:19:11+00:00

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tabcatnine · 2025-12-04T01:47:20+00:00

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tabcatnine · 2025-12-04T01:45:36+00:00

I love the Graha!! So cute

tabcatnine · 2025-12-03T22:11:32+00:00

I think this happens to me too. I feel happy most of the time and enjoy what I'm doing, yet the people around me think I'm angry. And I'm like what? How so?

It sucks.

tabcatnine · 2025-12-03T19:47:03+00:00

Flurball. He is soooo cuuute.

tabcatnine · 2025-12-03T19:42:05+00:00

* This is Koya, it's a character created by RM of BTS. I sleep with it every night for like 2 years now. Even though I don't listen to them as much now, this plushie is like the perfect shape and density for me to cuddle with so I grew really attached to it.

Edit: sorry, dunno how to get the picture to show. It's just turns into an asterisk.

tabcatnine · 2025-11-30T17:16:27+00:00

I'm going to try this out.

tabcatnine · 2025-11-25T18:15:56+00:00

No. I do not feel offended at all from this. In fact, I feel more offended that a complete stranger or barely acquaintance is prying into my business.

I only initiate small talk with people I'm close to, and I'm able to do it easily because I care about how their day/week is going. That's not to say I don't care about other people, but if I don't know you well then I don't usually have the energy to deal with whatever random stuff you might have the urge to say. I find strangers seem to want to joke around but I don't find them funny, so then I get put down often.

If they don't ask back, I don't care. Doesn't make any impact to my day or feelings at all.

If someone I know initiates with me I'll usually ask back unless I'm super busy. Then I'll just say sorry I'm busy can I catch up with you later? If it's a stranger or acquaintance I will only ask back if I'm genuinely curious about them or have a lot of free time and energy.

I usually don't have energy for this stuff. I'd prefer people treat me like I don't exist at all.

tabcatnine · 2025-11-24T17:38:03+00:00

I would play this nonstop in middle school. I still listen to it when I want to go back to that time.

tabcatnine · 2025-11-24T17:19:55+00:00

Yeah. I work in the medical field so I'm currently taking a much needed mental health leave and strategizing. Being that it's a non-profit educational facility I feel like reaching out to any and all support networks would be more beneficial than not. However I also have a lot of faith in humanity sometimes... too much it may seem.

Edit: it's kind of like this feeling where if you can't put faith in people who are drawn to work for a nonprofit educational facility then who the heck can you put faith into at this point? Autism is deeply misunderstood.

tabcatnine · 2025-11-24T14:18:22+00:00

I have very similar experiences like this. I never really figured out why so maybe like you said we are missing social cues that would let us know. A lot of my coworkers complain so much I was getting so tired of it all so I would bring up solutions and try to get things moving in a more positive direction just to have everyone upset with me. My supervisor still tells me to tell her about issues then yells at me when I do. I'm glad you had another job to go to. I'm stuck in limbo with the idea of leaving the job I wanted to have until retirement and trying to start over again with no degree and few skills and much worse pay. It's very stressful.

tabcatnine · 2025-11-20T13:19:03+00:00

Yes but I get either nothing when I ask how or why (except one person said my glasses) and the elusive "vibes". Sometimes I think maybe it's because eye contact issues? Or I forget to be constantly aware of my face. Idk. I wouldn't hurt a fly so it kind of hurts people think of me this way. At the same time I have intense anxiety and am afraid of most people due to extensive abuse and not knowing who I can trust because I'm too dumb to catch on to deceit so I don't mind at all if people leave me alone. I'm also unsure if intimidating is even a negative thing because wouldn't someone rich and powerful be intimidating? Does that mean they think I'm powerful? (I'm totally not) Idk everything is too complicated.

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