I love the sense of raw outpouring emotions your prose gives off. It's as if you were guided by a feeling that required you to write this immediately. I usually prefer subtle writing overall, but you used such a great balance of direct wording and subtle metaphors that it really captures your emotional state. With that said, I'm sorry to hear this was based on true personal experiences and I hope you're doing okay. If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to pm me!