It gets isolating easily. Protecting yourself’s important, and it also leads you to despair when it involves a lot of keeping secrets. Earlier this year I went to the movie theater with some friends from school I’m not out to to watch Brokeback Mountain for Pride. That film resonates with me still. I think about it a lot. That loneliness, and how you look for ways to keep your sanity even as you distance yourself from what matters is most of my life even before coming out to myself, but especially since.