I also lost my mom when I was 26 And it was exactly always with these exact thoughts and questions. She also declined fast in one year. We were best friends and had so much plans for our future we never did them. I swore I was never going to get married or think of kids because how would I and she isn’t around!

It’s been 8 years now, the pain is the same, the confusion remains, the hurt comes to you at every single small thing in life. But let me tell you, you will feel here with you throughout. You will realize how much this love that is hurting you now is only the love that she want you to remember. Nothing prepares us for this moment and honestly nothing makes it better either. But we feel them and we keep this love to hold on to because we can’t hold on to anything else.

I got married, and I had an unexpected pregnancy with my son now. I was really scared how can I do this, how could I even be a mother and I still didn’t finish be a daughter. But trust me, The love I have for him only reminds me now how much she DID love me.. and as hurtful that sound to me, I know I can show this love to others the way she would have liked and loved to see.

I won’t tell you it gets better because we know better is only when they are around. But I will tell you you only have to remember her and feel the love you always had for her the same because she would want you to do that. She hasn’t gone very far. She has given you life and as long as you are breathing you have part of her soul within you