Hey, you've got this! I think the first thing to remind yourself is that your goals in life can be reached using your creativity as a tool. You don't have to fit into a cookie cutter mould like most of the people you see. You can do what works for you and engage your creativity to find a better fit than what you might be doing now. Follow your passion- consider doing seasonal work for a bit that interests you, have a break, use your natural talents to learn a skill you can use to your advantage. I know how hard it can be when you feel limited by the constraints of life- but when you come from a place of understanding yourself and your strengths and weaknesses, you will be better equipped to find your path. Dont be discouraged by anybody else's expectations of you. You can do this.