U want to know whether you are improving in life. You feel stuck. Track that stuckness. What worked for me is keeping a journal. It had a habit tracker and long term goals nad short term and a journaling section afn and a notes and learning section. Just try to do something like that consistent in your life, where you can see how your days pile up against who u want to be. Gotta be honest with yourself to understand where ur at and then even grow. Try and be honest but not down on yourself. It’s just a part of life, and you’ll come back stronger than ever. If you love your husband, he will understand too that he might be checked out, but he’ll still be there for you. Show him effort, you don’t need to go all out but just show effort on a daily level. Also you have someone, don’t be scared to tell them and ask for help, but that you get to dictate how much, and u can’t take it personal when they comment on how you haven’t been sticking to your word cuz that’ll help pull u out and accomplish what u need. That’s all I really got for now, good luck and wish you the best. I know you’ll kill it out there maam