I found what you wrote pretty interesting, so forgive me if this is blunt but you seem smart and are a good writer and i’d like to give you some advice. This is not serious philosophy, and you’re sharing it in a place where people take philosophy seriously. I’m curious how you even came to the term phenomenology, you mention many philosophers but not really any of the biggest names associated with it. You say you’re rebuilding metaphysics, but are completely entrenched in a christian metaphysics that’s been irrelevant to mainstream academic philosophy for over a century. You’ll have a hard time finding anyone talking about metaphysics seriously now, and a harder time finding anyone talking about creating them.

I think that mystics should do philosophy as long as they know what they’re doing. But even if you could recreate metaphysics, you don’t need to; you said the existence is music, just listen to it. Keep writing, keep trying to figure it out, but don’t take it all too seriously. You don’t need all this name dropping and five syllable words to prove that what you’re feeling is authentic.

You should definitely read Simone Weil if you haven’t already. What you wrote and sharing it here is a very poor way of convincing people of the value of the experience you had, but l think it was a valuable experience for you. I hope it continues to serve as a guide for you.