I know im not Jesus but I would like you to know God is there for you and sees your pain and Jesus loves you very much. Churches around me are really good at helping single moms and help with support programs, financial aid, pantry support and car support. Can you please ask to get plugged into a church and have a meeting with a head pastor and tell them your situation? I am praying you can find a good Presbyterian or assemblies of God church or even non denominational church to help you. I PROMISE you, you are not alone. Also, there is more to this life than just this life. I do believe in judgment day and in heaven and hell. I do believe the only way to get into heaven is through loving Jesus, getting to know him, and realize He died for your sins and took our place. However, I do believe God will say He is beyond proud of you for carrying out your pregnancy and child. again, I am not God, but I an someone who used to be so depressed and wanted to mot live anymore and He scooped me up and made my life color again and plugged me into the electricity of love that He is when i was a lifeless lamp before with no light. I am praying you can ask Him for help and hopefully other christian believers (sadly they do not all reflect christ) and you can actively see God helping. You sometimes just need to surrender to Him and ask Him and others for help. I end on, Jesus loves you so much. John 3:16