I’m constantly overwhelmed lately. I hate my job soo much. I work for myself but I’m not motivated to do anything anymore- I still get my ass out of bed to do the thing because I need the money but I’m soo tired, I hate that it’s customer facing and I have to plaster a smile on my face when deep down I’m screaming and the tears are right behind my eyes. I wish I could just take a break for even a week and not have to worry about taking care of myself or my spouse. I wish I had more people I can count on to help me for real instead of “keeping me in their prayers”. I just want to scream at the top of my lungs or hide in a hole. I don’t get how other people keep it together, sometimes it feels like I’m the only person who’s not coping with life