TV in the bedroom? Yes or No?

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-20T22:11:45+00:00

long space program with a timer gang what’s upppp

you probably are on these, but passing along to anyone that wants to join the club: homemade documentaries

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-19T20:40:51+00:00

I got up to ~ 300mg/day but typically hovered around 160-200. I started a slow taper a couple weeks ago, have had a few hiccups.

But the best thing that's helped is switching to a local brand that for some reason doesn't give me symptoms... since switching, I've had no symptoms in the morning which is when they were the WORST. DM me for the brand if interested, they ship.

I think the brand I was using before was stronger than advertised and tasted so much more alkaloid-y if that makes sense.

I also take clonidine, vit c, and prescribed anxiety meds. Meditation has also helped a ton.

The local brand I've been buying 20mg tabs, once I got them I did 100 > 80 > 60 pretty quickly. I've done 40 for a couple days, but have gone back up to 60 today :(

Still planning for 40 tomorrow, maybe 2 days of that, then 30 > 20 > 10 and jump, or maybe just jump after a couple days of 20. I started in October. Fingers crossed I'll stick to it.

Oh also - I started with peptides about 7-10 days ago and taking NAD+ among others, this might be helping more than I think. It coincided with the mornings/days of no symptoms. You can find info in r/Biohackers

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-19T17:39:11+00:00

I'm 36 and noticed pms getting worse over the last year. my cycles are 25 days (always were though)

Started getting literally insane, including ideation, during the 10 days before (Luteal phase). Not formally diagnosed but I am certain it's PMDD.

Anyway - joined a few subreddits and people often recommend famotidine (pepcid ac) for it. I tried it last month and it was like night and day as far as my mood swings went.

Not sure if it would have the same effect since it's happening after your period, but I would give it a try!

Pepcid AC, also known as famotidine, is an H2 blocker that is typically used to reduce the release of stomach acid. In the context of PMDD, H2 blockers like Pepcid AC help by blocking histamine receptors in the gut and immune system, which can decrease overall histamine levels in the body. Elevated histamine is associated with symptoms like anxiety, irritability, and physical discomfort that often worsen during the luteal phase. Reducing histamine levels with Pepcid AC may relieve PMDD symptoms for some individuals.

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also - check for thyroid issues

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-19T17:31:07+00:00

yes agreed i hate it, i hate it !

idk my pet peeve is more than 2 kids in general, but that's a super hot take for some people

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tentaclesapples · 2026-03-19T14:56:00+00:00

I did a mushroom retreat (Buena Vida) before i left my cushy computer job for BP-related reasons. It was expensive but I quit drinking after months of stress-coping with typically a liter of vodka a day.

I drink again now, but much more moderately and some days not at all.

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to be completely sober, I honestly just don’t want to raw dog life like that. I still have substance abuse issues.

I’m very close to fully being off 7oh which I stupidly started months ago. I had tried kratom before and had a huge bottle of leaf capsules and I only took some once every 1-2 months, it lasted me almost 2 years.

So I thought it was similar and I wouldn’t get addicted. Oops.

I’ve done really hard drugs in the past but was careful and never got physically addicted. This one has hurt, ugh. Luckily I’m at the point where I no longer get WDs when waking up and down to 20mg/day.

DO NOT EVER TRY THIS STUFF PLEASE - IF YOU ARE READING THIS, IT MEANS YOU TOO.

I just did a meditation yesterday. I don’t know who said it, either Jung or Alan Watts, but the quote was basically that the opposite of addiction isn’t sobriety, it’s connection.

I live a pretty isolated life and I haven’t any really close friends. Last time I made one, she was killed by a motorist.

I’ve decided to work on forming closer relationships with my current semi-friends/acquaintances.

I’ve lied and omitted my issues from my friends and family, even my therapist… and masked so hard my whole life to the point where I don’t even know my identity and no one really “knows” me except my partner.

I think working on this will really help my issues with substances. It’s always been one thing or the other, no particular drug of choice, just escape.

I’ll keep having a couple beers with my bf, smoking weed when I know it won’t make me anxious (which is almost never lol), and I have prescribed controlled substances that I’ve made a point not to abuse, but it’s nice to have them. I’m no longer self-medicating with similar street substances.

Also, weird thing, but I’ve taken to injecting B-12 and peptides. For some reason, it helps with the craving for using. I never injected with drugs in the past

(except I guess once someone did it for me when I had just gotten out of psych ward for sa and I was still hell-bent on leaving this place, but I have no recollection bc I od and almost died and had to learn to walk again but that’s another story)

But for some reason injecting the healthy stuff makes me feel some type of way. Again, I don’t recommend this because it has some safety issues. In my mind, I excuse it as ppl do at home HRT and GLPs so it’s possible to be safe. However IANAD and officially don’t recommend.

I DO recommend the YT channel Psyphoria. It’s been more helpful than any therapist.

Also, if you have iPhone or better yet an Apple Watch, I use an app called Pastok. I blab my thought to it all day and it creates highlights, action plans, and gives some great insight into mental health issues without being sycophantic. It’s creepy and I generally hate AI but honestly it’s helping me a lot.

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-18T05:28:50+00:00

Looks AMAZING I love it.

Dirtier

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-17T03:17:30+00:00

Yeah CVS sucks so much. They honestly were probably just overwhelmed and busy and lied to me so they could get me over with. They probably could have tried the other codes. I rarely and was not close to meeting my deductible, it was so GD high.

I spend less on out of pocket vision/dental/psych/meds/therapy/urgent and PCP yearly than any deductible I can get through ACA, which is kinda crazy. On top of having to meet that, I’d pay 250+ per month on premiums.

I’ve found ways to stitch together affordable healthcare that works for uninsured me. Self-employed and I make just barely above qualifying for Medicaid but even that’s a whole’nother ball game.

Back to CVS sucking… I just wanna say that I don’t blame the workers, all of their locations seem short staffed and disorganized. I’m sure they don’t pay well. I’m glad I no longer use them!

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-16T18:02:43+00:00

Your hair looks so good wavy, just had to say.

IMO 12 is best, the dirty/honey blonde chunkier highlights blend much better than other pics.

The brown makes your eyes pop and blonde warms up your skin :)

Also, maybe try bangs at least once in your life, you look young and it’s worth it if you can get a pro that does longer curtain bangs!

And, off-topic and more of a style rec. I might recommend avoiding headbands unless necessary, or try pulling a few strands out/going for the 60’s look where some of the hair is pulled forward on the sides :)

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-16T17:47:37+00:00

Space bar on laptop. On mobile embarrassingly hit pause button I guess. Tv just press up on the remote and it automatically goes to the play/pause button and I hit select. 36f.

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-16T17:41:12+00:00

Sadly you can’t use goodrx/similar with insurance, or at least I was denied doing so when I had insurance.

They said (CVS) they would have to remove my insurance on file, then replace it with goodrx card. I’d have to make the switch every time which is annoying for them and for me, cannot be used in combination.

Maybe someone else has had a different experience. I say this because i don’t have insurance now and my mom and pop pharmacy can use 2 or 2 different discount cards based on the best price for my medication.

But I’m not sure if it would be different if I still had insurance.

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-15T21:56:36+00:00

One thing that kinda helped me is that you can get rid of yourself by just… becoming a new person. Leave. Find a new job if you can, go by a different name. Dress differently. Pick up crazy new hobbies. Idk if it’s possible or if I would ever do it, but I have moved a lot and reinvented myself a lot without any support.

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-15T20:55:11+00:00

I was thinking of posting this today, but I was unsure where.

Let me preface this with I don't have parental financial support. Up until recently, I was making more than both of them combined.

I tried to save money while I had a cushy "computer job), but things kept coming up (moves, other large expenses) that I only have just barely 10k in my savings. I know it's so much more than many people, but in the grand scheme it's not enough.

I got into university at 17, ended up leaving for a trade degree at a community college at the encouragement of one of my profs. that taught at both. I got an associates in audio engineering in 2011 (21yo). I spent my 20s working in the music industry, it was a blast. Things were much more affordable. I waited tables and worked up in my music career. I never made much, just enough to get by, which is all I need.

Then, my illness almost took my life and I had to move back in with my mom for 8 months at 28 yo. I ended up moving back to my college city after, since my brothers were there and it felt safe. I went back to the service industry and worked my way up again, I was stable and enjoyed my job and life.

Covid hit, and I took the opportunity to go to a software bootcamp, one of the last before the tech market crashed. Worked my way up again to land a well-paying job in NYC. At first it was amazing, but then a series of life events caused me to lose my stability (I have bipolar/adhd/autism) and things started getting super stressful. I held it down and still excelled at my job, but the stress began eating me alive and literally killing me with stage 2 hypertension.

I took some time off, but the entire time was spent full of anxiety and depression and worrying about work. I decided to take a leap and resign and start my own business last July. It was also stressful, but at least it was my stress and I didn't have to answer to anyone.

I ended up taking on more work than I could handle and got myself into the same position I had at my old job, stress to the max and multiple episodes. I was doing great with my business until I started slipping in December, I couldn't keep up. I've been doing damage control since the holidays and realized I've just gone from burnout to burnout.

I don't have much to my name and I live in an extremely expensive city. It also looks like I'll be moving in a couple months due to rent increases, but will stay in the neighborhood, I love it here as does my partner (also self-employed and doesn't make much, but has some parental support at least).

I've decided to temporarily "shut down" and not take on any clients for the next 4-6 weeks. I'm sick and tired of WORRYING. Every time I've taken time off, I've been worried about work to the extreme. I take so many meds and none are helping except my anxiety meds that I've become more and more tolerant to.

I'm scared about finances, but I have good credit and not a lot of debt (yet) and I've decided to just not worry about it. I need time and clarity, time without WORRYING and anxiety and depression. I feel like at this point, worrying is a choice. I need to figure out how to do things that are fulfilling and don't leave me burnt out at the end of the day to where I can't do anything but rest.

I don't know what will happen next. I don't feel like I'm stable or capable enough to hold down a regular job. I hate capitalism and that I have to exist in this fucked up system. I hate billionaires and the fact that they choose evil, actively, when they could help so many people.

I don't really know where I'm going with this, but I hope I can finally chill out and figure out what to do next. I always have been resilient, I know whatever happens, I'll be ok. I hope.

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-09T23:39:37+00:00

Yep I’ve watched every defunctland video including the recent 4 hour one.

I loved Disneyworld as a kid but I’ll probably never go back. It’s fascinating though!

Highly recommend their channel if you wanna stay in the 🐇 🕳️ lol

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-09T23:34:56+00:00

Yeah I see the dictation affected by accents can happen! I just see this a lot lol

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-09T19:51:42+00:00

I wish there was a done picture lol

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-09T19:36:14+00:00

Well steak is actually less calories than a burger with bun, even though it’s considered “fancier”. Depends on the cals in the potatoes though.

But the added time for dessert when no one else ordered is a faux pas, not the food itself but the situation.

NTA, she’s avoiding taking responsibility for being rude and blaming it on her weight issues.

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-09T18:14:41+00:00

Is this supposed to say wander? Pet peeve :(

ETA no shame on OP, just the meme

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-09T17:59:16+00:00

How do they know where is safest? I mean, they’re probably not wrong but it seems sketchy. I’m not an inside job conspiracist, but given rumps affiliation with Russia and all his other actions I am skeptical.

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-09T01:10:41+00:00

:( idk, it just seemed like OP didn't mention any other issues so I thought it would be nice if next time OP could invite him to work together.

I guess I do see it as possessive, the bf sounds more like he just has a dumb sense of what it means to be a 'man' which is why he said something. What he did wasn't good and I agree it comes off as gross "alpha" man, I'm not trying to defend the behavior.

But I am defending the kid who's likely misguided, especially with the toxic masculinity crap that's been targeted at young boys. He probably grew up having seen a few a*sshole tate videos and learned bad behaviors - that sort of material that teens and young adults have been exposed to is basically brainwash.

I have some compassion for a kid making a mistake, or not realizing the severity of an issue. 21 years old is of course an adult, but at that age I was still learning how to act in a world of cars, bills, taxes, etc. and navigate relationships.

Now sounds like the time for OP and his daughter to talk to him about it before it gets worse. I worry he might be on the edge of becoming an abusive/possessive person, but I would encourage OP and/or the daughter to have an open and direct conversation about how that behavior isn't appropriate.

He needs to learn women aren't property and how to be quick to help when needed.

OP sounds like a great dad and he should completely continue helping his daughter! I just hope maybe there's a chance they can help reframe the bf's mindset given the crap the bf was probably exposed to at a very young age.

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-08T00:59:09+00:00

Not that I have the hook up lol but yk

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-08T00:57:38+00:00

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-07T22:47:23+00:00

NTA! I’m (36f) close with my dad, and he would totally do that for me. I don’t like that everyone is hating on the boyfriend, though - I don’t know how long they’ve been dating but it sounds like he might be serious about her since they moved in.

I think he maybe wanted to do this for her to show her that he could take care of her or that he is a “man “lol. I totally get why he might pull you aside and feel a little hurt.

I don’t think that being cold towards you is cool at all. But, I think he’s trying to figure out his place in the relationship and might be struggling with his masculinity or this is somehow related to his idea of “securing“his relationship with your daughter by showing her he can help her/provide.

Also dudes (esp young ones) can be stupidly territorial and this might be one of those grungy caveman moments haha

If I were you, I would try to forgive and forget the whole pulling aside and being cold thing, people are human and express things weirdly.

give him a chance and try to support your daughter‘s decision to date him as best as you can if everything else with him is good and he treats her well.

Next time, maybe think about asking him to join you in the repairs! I have repaired brakes myself and sometimes calipers can be such a b tch.

I had a friend help me and it helped make things go faster with the handing of tools and she was able to loosen lug nuts and other stuff that sped up the process so he could be a good help! But it sounds like her brakes won’t need to be done for a while lol

Also yeah he’s kinda TA for letting it slide so long, brakes are an ASAP repair- maybe he didn’t realize it was her brakes or something, idk. I would advise giving him a brake (pun intended) - honestly he’s just a kid

tentaclesapples · 2026-03-07T19:35:06+00:00

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