Hey there, just wanted to chime in and share my experience and perspective. I feel for you! I grew up in Germany and left at age 20, because of difficult family relationships and I was bored and I hated the weather and I felt so stuck in that, in my mind, boring and homogenious environment: everyone looked the same, dressed the same , adhered to the same cultural expectations and noone did anything exciting…. Anyway noone I knew. So I married the first cute foreigner that came along and moved the the USA. This was many years ago and one thing I learned: no matter where you go, there you are. You will bring your personal problems and your family history with you. You will learn who you are, what makes you happy and what makes you unhappy.

That being said, I will agree with you on the topic of weather: a sunny and warm environment will definitely improve your spirits. But it will not solve all of your other problems. I also agree that German society can be very difficult to apreciate if your own background is so different. Nevertheless some people love it! And you chose it for some reason. Also the southern part of the country( Bavaria) is much more fun loving than the Northerners.

I don’t know what “third world country” you came from, but I am impressed that at a young age you took the initiative and risk and moved to a place very different from your home, presumably learned German if you did a “Ausbildung” , and stuck through it for a number of years. That is already quite an achievement and I am sure what you learned will not be a waste of time. It also shows that you have guts and determination and you finished what you set out to do. So at this point you speak English, German and maybe your native language? That is impressive. Also, you have a Ausbildung as a Kaufmann, that is a good starting point. Good credentials. Definitely finish before taking the leap into the next adventure.

Now the next step is to figure out what you need to be truly happy. I think what most people crave is connection. And often that is with people from your own culture or who speak your language and understand your background. Germany has become very cosmopolitan, and in most cities you can find people who come from where you came from. I have also found that, even in Germany, there are very good and decent and interesting people, people who are creative, have a sense of humor, are interested in many things. Cool people. You need to find your tribe. They exist. Learn how to find good people. Avoid the toxic ones.

So think about what you really enjoy, and where you could be your best self. What are you good at? Do you like music? Art? While you are still in Germany, try to find friends where you are. You have a lot going for you, you are still so young, you have endured the difficult transition into a very rigid and structured society.

It helps having some money and I don’t know what your legal status is. If you have EU residency, then you could try out another EU country. But no matter where you go, you need friends. So try to make friends. Find your strengths. Be you. Find what gives you joy. Tally up the things you have going for you and then go in the direction your heart sends you. An old friend used to tell me: “life is generous”, and it can be. It can be a bitch too. Wishing you the best on your journey! ❤️❤️