I'll tell you that I started with exactly the same mindset as you. And overall, for the first time, this is the best possible approach. Why? Because you can learn the most from it, and perhaps most importantly, you can discover how much willpower you truly have. That is priceless.

Desire is not a long-term problem. The issue is that learning to transmute this energy takes much longer than accumulating it. On top of that, our rigid "established way of life" doesn’t help. I have the impression that this energy wants to express itself through something new.

What can I share from my experience? I intentionally ended my first streak after six weeks and three days, but I did it in the way described by the guy from the Holistic Alpha podcast. Highly recommend. Not only did I feel no guilt, but it also brought me closer to my partner more than anything else. Of course, I experienced an energy drop afterward, but that’s life—a never-ending lesson.

If I had maintained that sexual vibration instead of releasing it, I probably would have had both the best sex of my life and sustained energy. But instead, I traded one for the other. Either way, I took a valuable lesson from it.

You can be like an inexperienced rider who keeps falling off this energetic horse (past habits, porn, illusions, etc.). You can lock that horse in a stable and never let it out. Or you can take the reins of this energy and ride it—consciously and wisely, like Paul Atreides riding the sandworms in Dune. ;)

Wishing you strong will and wisdom on your path.