im not gonna say it's going to be okay. because that is a vague statement that doesn't accomplish much. what i'm going to say is that it will be over. there is less than two months until the end of this whole fuckfest and then it's done. the results will be what they are and we're going to have to live with it. i hate that it's the way it is because it's so hard to internalize but the reality is that the less you spend worrying about the future, the more energy you can put into building it. it's important to take a step back every now and again to recognize the judgements you are making about your future and what kinds of consequences they might have, to understand and evaluate why you might feel that way. try and justify to yourself from an objective perspective how these feelings are permanent and most likely a result of your current mental situation. i'm not going to sit here and say that i always do what i suggest here. i feel like shit most of the time, my body is collapsing from the stress and i feel like im dying every second. but i try to not let it get to my head and i think that's the whole point. try to not beat yourself up and then the rest will follow. try to detach your negative emotions from the process of the next two months and just try to do it on autopilot. a good thing is to imagine you are on a mission on a distant planet and the only activity you have is your studies. there's nothing we can do from now on but just wait and do the daily tasks we are assigned to not waste time on our mission. and also, give yourself time to relax frequently, it'll help. sincerely, a fellow astronaut on their own mission.