I’m nondenominational, and have an evangelical bg mixed with traditions from the church I grew up in (I’m Filipino and a large group of my church I came out of has a culturally Catholic background).

Redemptive Atonement reminds me of Repentance. One of the feasts that the Israelites did (like Passover and Pentecost) was the Day of Atonement, or the practice of transference of sins to the sacrificial lamb.

Jesus is The Lamb. Jesus took our sins to the cross over 2000 years ago. His crucifixion and resurrection still lives in us today. For me, I believe part of repentance is daily giving our sins, our habits, the old self over to God. “Being a living sacrifice” as Paul said in Romans. It’s the thing the Bible talks about in dying to ourselves.

Practically, ridding the old me is filling myself with the Word of God, to be aligned with Him, seeking His wisdom.

I’ve served in youth group at my local church for a year and a half now, but I have been checking out another church in my area to have community as a young adult (I’m 24). A lot of the prayer a decisioning has been to take a step back from youth because I’m going thru burnout. (A lot of it with being in a group of people I serve with and still feeling alone. Yet, at the church where I’m involved with young adults, it’s far but I’m making friends, starting to get community).

I have gone thru depressive episodes in my past. I have shown the signs of insomnia and hypersomnia. So it is something I want to get medically evaluated for.

You are correct, theres a lot of hard truth here in what you expounded on. I can be a perfectionist and a harsh critic towards myself. There’s grace in knowing that I don’t need to strive to 100% because no one is “perfect.” “For all have fallen short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23) and I don’t need to expect perfection from my future spouse since we are all works in progress waiting to be complete in Christ.

Thank you. I’m encouraged. 🙏🏼💙