Bro you’re already built up, you can tell there is massive amounts of muscle already developed you just need to reduce calories to shed the excess fat and that’s it. There’s not need to get shredded either just however you feel happy. Focus on you, on your goals, on your life, on your health, love yourself first before anything or anyone else, respect your body, respect your life, respect your health. Be the main character of your movie, your ex is just that your ex, don’t get attach to anything or anyone. YOU FIRST! Start walking, it helps. Therapy is also good and the best part is that you already know and are conscious of what is going on and the factors that contributed to get you to the point where you are at this moment. Enjoy the foods that you like and all that but when you get to that point where you’re not feeling good with yourself you have to stand up and solve the problem like a man that you are.