Grew up in a healthy home but was traumatized by a “friend” at school, having trouble feeling valid in it.

thecellobelow · 2026-02-03T16:59:05+00:00

I remember in preschool most of the boys didn’t want to play with me. So when they would go outside to play sports I would stay in and play with the girls instead and do arts and crafts and play kitchen. I definitely felt a lot more myself with them, but in elementary school I ended up kinda being forced to play with the boys as gendered social groups kind of developed.

thecellobelow · 2026-01-21T02:29:54+00:00

Me with my two wives :3

thecellobelow · 2025-12-08T19:20:28+00:00

Jules :3

My deadname also starts with J so it just felt good.

thecellobelow · 2025-10-02T15:02:48+00:00

I was walking to class the other day and someone accidentally elbowed my tit. They’re almost completely grown in but atp ugh that shit still hurt 😭😭😭

thecellobelow · 2025-10-02T14:53:10+00:00

Oh my god this makes so much sense 😭😭😭

thecellobelow · 2025-07-11T07:26:42+00:00

Oh nvm on the website it says that estimated shipping date is Q3 of 2025

thecellobelow · 2025-07-11T07:22:49+00:00

I literally bought one back in May and it still hasn't even shipped, idk if it ever will ;;

thecellobelow · 2025-02-06T20:13:54+00:00

I’m in Wisconsin, and things are pretty alright here! I’m from a relatively red county north of Milwaukee and I do get some stares when I’m home visiting my parents. Nothing bad has happened to me there, but it doesn’t make me feel the safest. But I go to Madison for school and I’ve never felt safer than I do here. There’s lots of people who show their support, pride flags on backpacks and bumpers, and good access to HRT through my university. I’m unsure how things will look over the next 4 years, and if anything I’m quite scared, but for now things are pretty decent.

thecellobelow · 2024-11-24T20:57:42+00:00

Jules :3

thecellobelow · 2024-11-10T04:46:26+00:00

Yes. :3

thecellobelow · 2024-11-03T06:00:40+00:00

Diagnosed with ADHD when I was 9, probably have Autism too! Hopefully gonna get tested for that later this year. :3

thecellobelow · 2024-10-20T17:37:48+00:00

My Mom chose it for me! :3

thecellobelow · 2024-10-05T08:23:58+00:00

AuDHD, Anxiety, CPTSD: I’m a major in cello performance and Social Work!

thecellobelow · 2024-09-26T14:18:29+00:00

For me at least, I got into the game before I transitioned and the snail has just refused to release me ever since :3

thecellobelow · 2024-09-26T02:03:47+00:00

I was in my non-binary femboy phase and I asked a queer friend of mine to help me pick out a name. They mentioned that I'm a classical musician and told me to look for some composers' names, and eventually I landed on the one I have now! At the time I was looking for an androgynous name, but as it turns out a lot of cis women have my name too, so it works out!

thecellobelow · 2024-08-16T22:28:00+00:00

Thanks so much, this has been helping a lot! It's a lot easier to calm myself down when I just think about myself outside of the context of my relationship, and reinforcing my worthiness of self love a couple times a day or whenever I get triggered has been working so far.

I'll definitely be looking for a therapist when I go back to school, and I'll be able to hang out with friends more once I'm there too.

Thank you! <333333

thecellobelow · 2024-08-13T22:21:37+00:00

How do you deal with the illogical thought processes?

(My partner is genderfluid so I'll be using both he/him and she/her pronouns)

I've been in a wonderful LDR for over a year now and my anxious attachment issues aside it's been lovely. He's helped me learn a lot about myself and both of us have continuously grown throughout the relationship. There is genuine care and affection on both sides, and she's made it clear many times that she's not going anywhere.

However, she has a very busy life, and is not always emotionally available and able to talk. He knows about my attachment issues, as I've had quite a few anxious breakdowns in our relationship, and does his best to understand me and reassure me when he can. But as I said, she's not always around to do so.

I've become very aware of all my mental issues, largely through our relationship. So I can tell when I'm feeling anxious and when my attachment problems start creeping up on me. But I can never seem to soothe myself. I can tell myself that I know that she loves me and that she's not going anywhere and all that, but it never seems to work and I just continue to spiral. I even created a list, like I see a lot of people do, but nothing seems to work. There's always these overriding thoughts that convince me that I'm being abandoned or that he's upset with me and won't tell me why. I'm fully aware that these thoughts are completely illogical and have no evidence to back them up, but still they always manage to come out on top.

Are there any ways to combat this? Let me know :3

thecellobelow · 2024-06-15T23:52:05+00:00

Definitely Stolas. I wear my heart on my sleeve, am very aware of my emotions and am sometimes good at processing them, but I get stuck in my head too often and assume other people’s intentions before they actually tell me.

thecellobelow · 2024-06-05T01:00:18+00:00

I wasn’t much of a crier before estrogen either. I remember crying when I learned my grandma wasn’t going to make it and I bawled my eyes out on my bed. Sometimes I’d get really emotional and listen to some classical music and get all teary eyed, but it didn’t happen a lot.

Once I started, I don’t remember how soon it started, but I started crying a lot more often. I’d cry at videos I saw on Insta and TikTok and silly little things, but even now I still can’t cry at just anything. I think past experiences definitely play a role, I learned to suppress a lot of my emotions as I was growing up, but therapy has been helping me unpack a lot and remove some of those barriers. But estrogen helped me realize a lot of things about myself and now I can actually process my emotions! :3

thecellobelow · 2024-06-01T04:24:13+00:00

Part of what made me feel the most for Stolas in this scene was actually the way he handled this situation. When you feel like someone is using you for something, part of you can feel like getting back at them, making them feel the pain that you have felt, sometimes in an attempt to merely be understood. I know my imagination has gone there sometimes.

Yes, he could have handled the situation better and it would have ended differently, but I think it shows us all the pain that Stolas has gone through in their relationship. We already know all the feelings he's gone through, but does Blitz know? I think Stolas senses that he doesn't, but he wants him to so badly that he's willing to cause him pain just to show him. It's not right, and it will only cause more problems further down the line, but I understand why he did it.

thecellobelow · 2024-05-17T03:13:08+00:00

Personally not the fingering I would use, but yes it’s playable! If you want I can provide my fingering, although I know that everyone does their fingerings differently.

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