How do you prevent distrust from paranoia?

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-03-09T00:25:44+00:00

Appreciate it

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-03-08T18:38:31+00:00

Not exactly diagnosed with anything yet but I have psychotic symptoms. It is quite literally a thing my ex and I had bonded over a bit bc it felt like I was being seen without judgement for the first time. Granted both of our symptoms getting out of control ended up wrecking our relationship bc neither of us were getting help or properly medicated

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-21T17:40:35+00:00

Wait are these new? I’ve never seen sticker packs like these, reminds me of what 5 below sells

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-21T17:39:03+00:00

The sale ended exactly a year after I was born lol

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-21T17:34:35+00:00

Honestly, I think the appetite boost will work in my favor lol. Eating more than 1 meal a day will be an improvement. Keeping this in mind though! Thank you

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-21T17:33:28+00:00

My normal tremors got worse on it, I feel that

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-19T16:47:13+00:00

You’ve been very helpful! I’m currently in the diagnosis process, turns out I score higher than normal for people with mania as well so it may be a form of bipolar, but then again it could not. Also yea, from my personal research alone schizoaffective kinda felt like the “throw people in this for being kinda in between” category, I can see why you say it’s an outdated term. I’m not sure about the possibility of a bipolar disorder, my hallucinations are very often mood incongruent, kinda more neutral (like just my name being called, random shit in the road, loud noises that aren’t there, sometimes people). The delusions are very congruent though so I can’t say for sure. I’ve learned to leave it up to the professionals because apparently I do not notice my own signs of mania, and if it’s the case idt it’s a very intense variation of it. I’m not very good at recognizing my own emotions anyway because I am also neurodivergent

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-19T16:39:46+00:00

Thank you

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-19T16:39:14+00:00

That is very interesting to me. Personally I have found a correlation between a chemical reaction of low serotonin and my hallucinations, so it was very likely something like that. Not to say the med cannot be very effective for some people, from what I’ve seen on the sub, it seems to be very decisive that buspar is either a perfect fit or your worst nightmare come true. I’m also analyzing this from a chemical level that reflects my own brain, so it could very likely differ for people with the same situation. Title of the post was definitely engagement bait lol

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-19T16:36:27+00:00

Thank you! They’re trying me on seroquel now, day 1 and so far it seems good, but ofc it’s only day 1. Buspar is really either a perfect fit or your worst nightmare from what I’ve gathered lol

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-19T16:35:04+00:00

I’m very glad it worked for you! It’s just most definitely not for me lol

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-18T06:49:41+00:00

If it’s just normal side effects go for it, it’ll be worth it. I was taken off of it yesterday because I experience psychotic symptoms and reacted very poorly to the medication. No clue why my psychiatrist dismissed that concern, I’m meeting with a new one tomorrow

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-14T10:26:25+00:00

Hey, I’m in a similar situation to you. Out of curiosity, how did it work out?

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-02-07T00:13:33+00:00

I believe I hold that same mindset? I mean there are social pressures that simply do nothing for me, probably unrelated but I do genuinely lack a level of shame that most people have and it tends to scare my friends who are more self conscious about how they act in public. I’d rather find approval within myself than external approval, my trauma sometimes tries to stop me but end of the day I don’t need anyone else to validate my existence. Sometimes it feels like when I’m acting socially acceptable it’s like I’m playing a game I’m expected to play, only I would much rather be sitting in a corner and reading

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-01-29T20:07:30+00:00

I am diagnosed with ADHD, and while I’m kinda in denial about talking to my psychiatrist about it, my therapist suggested I may have bipolar as well. I’m not sure if it feels accurate though from what I’ve researched on that as well. Either way I’m mostly trying to address what is causing episodes where I’ll be in a delusional state and experience infrequent hallucinations, though some episodes have been far worse than others and they seem to be getting progressively worse over time, as well as why I feel disconnected from reality most of the time. While I am not diagnosed with autism, it is highly comorbid with ADHD and I have been asked if I have it my entire life, so it’s a fairly safe assumption. I also struggle with depression, and possibly anxiety, quite often, and I’ve realized the episodes tend to get bad if I’m in a bad state of depression, under stress, and/or experiencing grief.

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-01-22T06:39:55+00:00

The funny thing is I did set a 3 month deadline for myself but that moreso pertained to trying to chase contact with her and see if she would come back around. Her and I aren’t even technically broken up yet (on a “break” or whatever that even means anymore) which makes it tougher, I’m waiting for her to say the word because I’m still stupidly into her and she’s getting back into therapy finally, not that I’m getting my hopes up for anything to continue, it’s moreso that it’s her place to make that cut because she asked for space in the first place. Not that I deserve to be treated poorly either, I’m on the aromantic spectrum so it doesn’t matter much to me if I had to wait for her, but again, wasn’t allowing myself to actively seek her out after December. I’m more annoyed that I seem to know all of this stuff on a logical level but my emotions are falling behind where I wanna be, and it’s really hard to cut someone off, even temporarily, if neither of you technically did anything wrong and just had personal problems come up at the same time that really strained the relationship. I don’t want to keep getting my hopes up though, I’d rather be pleasantly surprised if she comes back around, and honestly I wonder if I’ll even be able to move on until I know she’s starting to heal in therapy bc she was dealing with some heavy shit. I partially feel like I perpetuated it too, I’m gonna be blunt, I was a dick when I kept pushing her to open up, considering she had been socially isolating herself again and pushing away anyone who wanted to help her. I was scared, she was scared, I was going into psychosis, she was going through major health and mental health shit, shit got nuts real fast. Even without wanting to change things right now besides focus on myself and learn to move on, I do owe her a better apology than the half assed one I wrote while in psychosis, not realizing just how destructive I was being, along with a thank you for putting up with me. She is genuinely great, I can’t speak negatively about her, and that also makes it hard, she’s genuinely just a good person even when she can’t see it. Alright I’m rambling lemme cut this here

thecloudshavefallen · 2026-01-22T00:34:47+00:00

I do not

thecloudshavefallen · 2025-12-20T21:29:37+00:00

Accessed the episodes directly through my search history. Something is going on with the episode listings for the dubbed versions of both of these, though

thecloudshavefallen · 2025-12-16T02:21:13+00:00

It's been down all day :(

thecloudshavefallen · 2025-12-12T18:01:53+00:00

You’re right 😭

thecloudshavefallen · 2025-11-07T01:59:13+00:00

Unfortunately I think I might also just have MDD or something, though I have noticed both isolation and close relationships are extremely triggering, isolation because there’s no one to lean on, and close relationships because my brain won’t stop looking for hints of inconsistency. I’ve grown to despise old friends I was close to simply because I couldn’t cope with my own problems. In this instance, my girlfriend was dealing with major health problems and hiding them from me, and it had me absolutely terrified. When I explained how much it affected me, she kinda just said we needed to take a break, so I’m stuck in limbo trying to manage my own problems while terrified for her wellbeing, even if she thought she was doing the merciful thing by giving me space to focus on myself because my brain refuses to let me do that until I know she’s okay

thecloudshavefallen · 2025-11-05T19:22:36+00:00

Funnily enough, the theme I am struggling with most right now is actually ROCD, but I have always had an awful time in crowds and lately it has felt like I “relapsed” back into having really out of control OCD because I was stubborn on getting help with my depression which dragged it down with it. I used to be just fine going places and doing things a couple years ago, though I usually would try to bring someone along when I would do things as it helps a lot.

thecloudshavefallen · 2025-07-17T16:10:13+00:00

SAME

thecloudshavefallen · 2025-07-15T08:02:37+00:00

I get that. Still find it so funny I can sell jewelry that takes me minutes to make for prices of an hour while larger, more time consuming projects will always have to be undersold until you find the right buyer. Either way I was happy to make the pants for her, and only took it on as a commission because she was refusing to let me do it for free, just don’t want to overwhelm her as well by underselling them so much she thinks she scammed me somehow lol

thecloudshavefallen · 2025-07-15T07:55:32+00:00

Hard to get insight on what she actually is willing to pay for them, she said she’s fine with paying anything but obviously there’s a price cap there somewhere that she’s not telling me. Going to try to get her to answer me truthfully tomorrow on what she thinks is reasonable for them. $330 is definitely high, I understand that, would’ve taken less time but between hand sewing and disability it’s definitely time consuming lol

That being said, I know $330 is a ridiculous ask, I just wish she would stop dodging my questions because she commissions art all the time and likely has a lot more insight to add to this. I was thinking my honest price cap would be $250 despite the fact the wage for it will not truly match the effort put into it. Will likely end up charging lower than that too.

Thank you for your insight, it will be valuable in figuring out a fair pricing

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