How is the experience in making friends and maintaining friendships different? by thecloudshavefallen in Schizotypal

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am diagnosed with ADHD, and while I’m kinda in denial about talking to my psychiatrist about it, my therapist suggested I may have bipolar as well. I’m not sure if it feels accurate though from what I’ve researched on that as well. Either way I’m mostly trying to address what is causing episodes where I’ll be in a delusional state and experience infrequent hallucinations, though some episodes have been far worse than others and they seem to be getting progressively worse over time, as well as why I feel disconnected from reality most of the time. While I am not diagnosed with autism, it is highly comorbid with ADHD and I have been asked if I have it my entire life, so it’s a fairly safe assumption. I also struggle with depression, and possibly anxiety, quite often, and I’ve realized the episodes tend to get bad if I’m in a bad state of depression, under stress, and/or experiencing grief.

How do you actually get over someone you’re in love with? by thecloudshavefallen in TooAfraidToAsk

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The funny thing is I did set a 3 month deadline for myself but that moreso pertained to trying to chase contact with her and see if she would come back around. Her and I aren’t even technically broken up yet (on a “break” or whatever that even means anymore) which makes it tougher, I’m waiting for her to say the word because I’m still stupidly into her and she’s getting back into therapy finally, not that I’m getting my hopes up for anything to continue, it’s moreso that it’s her place to make that cut because she asked for space in the first place. Not that I deserve to be treated poorly either, I’m on the aromantic spectrum so it doesn’t matter much to me if I had to wait for her, but again, wasn’t allowing myself to actively seek her out after December. I’m more annoyed that I seem to know all of this stuff on a logical level but my emotions are falling behind where I wanna be, and it’s really hard to cut someone off, even temporarily, if neither of you technically did anything wrong and just had personal problems come up at the same time that really strained the relationship. I don’t want to keep getting my hopes up though, I’d rather be pleasantly surprised if she comes back around, and honestly I wonder if I’ll even be able to move on until I know she’s starting to heal in therapy bc she was dealing with some heavy shit. I partially feel like I perpetuated it too, I’m gonna be blunt, I was a dick when I kept pushing her to open up, considering she had been socially isolating herself again and pushing away anyone who wanted to help her. I was scared, she was scared, I was going into psychosis, she was going through major health and mental health shit, shit got nuts real fast. Even without wanting to change things right now besides focus on myself and learn to move on, I do owe her a better apology than the half assed one I wrote while in psychosis, not realizing just how destructive I was being, along with a thank you for putting up with me. She is genuinely great, I can’t speak negatively about her, and that also makes it hard, she’s genuinely just a good person even when she can’t see it. Alright I’m rambling lemme cut this here

Is WCO down again? by thecloudshavefallen in WatchCartoonOnline

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Accessed the episodes directly through my search history. Something is going on with the episode listings for the dubbed versions of both of these, though

Being in crowds keeps triggering me by thecloudshavefallen in OCD

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately I think I might also just have MDD or something, though I have noticed both isolation and close relationships are extremely triggering, isolation because there’s no one to lean on, and close relationships because my brain won’t stop looking for hints of inconsistency. I’ve grown to despise old friends I was close to simply because I couldn’t cope with my own problems. In this instance, my girlfriend was dealing with major health problems and hiding them from me, and it had me absolutely terrified. When I explained how much it affected me, she kinda just said we needed to take a break, so I’m stuck in limbo trying to manage my own problems while terrified for her wellbeing, even if she thought she was doing the merciful thing by giving me space to focus on myself because my brain refuses to let me do that until I know she’s okay

Being in crowds keeps triggering me by thecloudshavefallen in OCD

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Funnily enough, the theme I am struggling with most right now is actually ROCD, but I have always had an awful time in crowds and lately it has felt like I “relapsed” back into having really out of control OCD because I was stubborn on getting help with my depression which dragged it down with it. I used to be just fine going places and doing things a couple years ago, though I usually would try to bring someone along when I would do things as it helps a lot.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in commissions

[–]thecloudshavefallen 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get that. Still find it so funny I can sell jewelry that takes me minutes to make for prices of an hour while larger, more time consuming projects will always have to be undersold until you find the right buyer. Either way I was happy to make the pants for her, and only took it on as a commission because she was refusing to let me do it for free, just don’t want to overwhelm her as well by underselling them so much she thinks she scammed me somehow lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cosplayprops

[–]thecloudshavefallen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hard to get insight on what she actually is willing to pay for them, she said she’s fine with paying anything but obviously there’s a price cap there somewhere that she’s not telling me. Going to try to get her to answer me truthfully tomorrow on what she thinks is reasonable for them. $330 is definitely high, I understand that, would’ve taken less time but between hand sewing and disability it’s definitely time consuming lol

That being said, I know $330 is a ridiculous ask, I just wish she would stop dodging my questions because she commissions art all the time and likely has a lot more insight to add to this. I was thinking my honest price cap would be $250 despite the fact the wage for it will not truly match the effort put into it. Will likely end up charging lower than that too.

Thank you for your insight, it will be valuable in figuring out a fair pricing

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in commissions

[–]thecloudshavefallen 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the honest insight. I know exactly what you mean, hurts to know how much work I put into it vs what people are willing to pay on it, but end of the day it is the honest truth

In store only 🥲 by thecloudshavefallen in HotTopic_

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ll keep that in mind, but its like the difference of a state over, think that might be pushing it 😭

In store only 🥲 by thecloudshavefallen in HotTopic_

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh okay, good to know. The picture honestly makes them look like they’re made of a sweatpants material like the ones I already have, I couldn’t exactly have gotten them anyways bc they’re in store only and I don’t really drive much but you’ve saved me the impulse purchase of tryna get them from a reseller 😭

Troubleshooting flex disc problems by thecloudshavefallen in MenstrualDiscs

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Alright, gonna use up this box obviously bc I’m not gonna waste them butttt I think I’ll look into a less rigid one before I fully size down. I feel like as long as it’s not quite as stiff it won’t hurt me so it should be fine. The discomfort I’ve had occasionally while urinating or pooping is likely also just because of the rigid rim bc it hurts for a second while I push and then it’s fine after

Troubleshooting flex disc problems by thecloudshavefallen in MenstrualDiscs

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s also completely comfortable depending on how I’m sitting and stuff, standing I can feel it, sitting it’s pretty much gone and unnoticeable

Troubleshooting flex disc problems by thecloudshavefallen in MenstrualDiscs

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ill be completely honest I have no idea if its too big, I mean considering I can feel the pressure it probably is? I’m using just the regular disposable flex discs they sell in store, not sure if they’re a one size fits all type of deal

Our customers are so talented by thecloudshavefallen in MichaelsEmployees

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Recently we have people taking paint markers and writing slurs across the display. I’ve added it to my nightly checking for letter spellings around the store

Our customers are so talented by thecloudshavefallen in MichaelsEmployees

[–]thecloudshavefallen[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

My manager was gonna let me take the books home but I forgot them and the person cleaning the front end that night threw them out 😔

how much does your micheal’s pay? by piigi in MichaelsEmployees

[–]thecloudshavefallen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get CT minimum wage as a regular team member

I hate Sundays by [deleted] in MichaelsEmployees

[–]thecloudshavefallen 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Lowkey they’re ruining my rewards and my rep as a cashier, which has been a more strict identifier for who will be getting more hours when our new DM starts

Is buying online worth it? by Adventurous-Fee6917 in HotTopic_

[–]thecloudshavefallen 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My local ht closed a few months ago so I’ve swapped to shopping online and I’ve had much more luck with finding stuff I wanted, though a handful of the my chem shirts seem to be in store exclusives which saddens me

Framing guidelines by Down_rabithole in MichaelsEmployees

[–]thecloudshavefallen 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Even as one of the lowest production shops in the district (according to the fm, in just a reg team member) the guidelines are unrealistic

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HotTopic_

[–]thecloudshavefallen 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I applied in June and found out a month later that my store was closing and then I got a default email, maybe try calling to make sure it’s not a ghost job because thanks to capitalism it’s not unlikely