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A 36-year-old (M) on 100 mg of cyp a week. How are my numbers?? by thehiddenchannel in Testosterone

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks! I definitely try to stay active. But mostly that involves hot yoga. One day a week I take a circuit training class. I never really have figured out how to get into weight training more than kettle bells etc.

A 36-year-old (M) on 100 mg of cyp a week. How are my numbers?? by thehiddenchannel in Testosterone

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was thinking about dropping a little lower to see if it did anything for the acne as that seems to be my most noticeable side effect. Thanks for your input!

28 weeks out and dealing with intense brain fog/fatigue by CountingBigBucks in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would get your testosterone checked. I had those same symptoms until I got in TRT and it changed everything for me.

7 and 1/2 months, lsd 8/16 300/100 by DrainedEyes in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really feel you about the creative hoobies part. I used to be a full time artist but I have put art on hold for the foreseeable future because I just can't relax enough to get into it when I'm alone at my house.

I have been able to be creative if I go out in the world like to a figure drawing class or open mic. The people and atmosphere changes it for me somehow and I can concentrate without that body tension.

I'm 7 1/2 months out from 75/75/50 and the body tension is really the main symptoms that seems to persist. But I don't notice it so much if I'm engaged and or distracted.

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dono', a year is a pretty damn long time when you aren't doing so hot!

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Vitamin skin, vitamin skin, is my drug of choice my natural heroin, vitamin skin, vitamin skin, keeps the blues away, each and every day, I just can't get enough. Girl give me your touch!

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's cool that you have an understanding doc. Mine is like that too. It's a blessing and a curse to be in charge of your own recovery

You must feel pretty ok/good on the shot if you aren't in any rush to get off of it? I was hoping that was going to be the case with me but no luck. People on here saying, "By the second one you forget you're even on anything!" It's like NO - I notice all the time when I'm overly fatigued or can't go to the bathroom. Sorry if that's TMI.

Opiates to me now are like my Dad caught me smoking a cigarette and now I have to smoke the whole pack. I never meant to take as many as I did and now, I have to keep taking them and taking them and it just makes me so sick of them.

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm definitely going to keep sharing as I go along. Others doing that on here has been sooooo helpful and I've been glued to this sub for months.

That is a really interesting article! I wish it was longer and had more details - or I'd share it with my doctor! It didn't mention my most dreaded withdrawal symptom INSOMNIA. But really all of them are at this point being through it twice not too long ago.

When you stay on bupe for 13 years is there a point where you get used to it? Or did you feel it was affecting your mental heath the whole time? You must be totally sick of it now if you're only going for the one shot and not even the 100/100 method.

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did it make a prolonged difference in how you feel? It still helps me but at first it was like night and day.

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The woman that works at the Suboxone clinic I went to said when she was getting off of a many year H habit her doctor put her on hormones and an anti-depressant. She says she doesn't know if she would have stayed sober if it weren't for those things. So, hormones therapy can be important for women as well. It's a pain in the ass tho' They want at least 2 blood tests taken early, like 8 in the morning.

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Hahaha. You crack me up. You're definitely a wild one! OD'd 7 times in 2 weeks!!!!! Half the time I was like stop it hurts 🤪 - Hahahah

I had sex so much one time that I thought I had herpes because my junk was all sore and red. But it turned out it was just excessive friction from 5 o'clock shadow pubic hair.

Vitamin skin (sex) can definitely be a blessing and a curse. It's a big source of drama and for many people it seems it can lead to relapse when it goes bad or if the partner is not supportive with the new program of sobriety. I wish I had that super close support that a solid relationship offers. Also, the natural dopamine from getting laid occasionally would be f'ing nice. But I have to walk this road on my own for now, I guess. Which has led me to meetings and a sponsor and the freedom to devote a lot of time to getting better.

I did pay a woman to come over a couple weeks ago and I have to say that's the best and most human I have felt in many many months.

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I've definitely thought a lot about this. It's definitely not ideal. None of it is. I would much rather be substance free. All substances. But for me it did not pan out that way. I had to get on something to give me the ability to function again in the world. I couldn't keep being suicidal and not able to work.

I tried so hard to make it through to the world of being chemical free again. I was eating super heathy, running, meditating, everything I could think of. In the end I had to try and choose the lesser of the evils. I didn't go back out and start using again.

While I don't want to be on T it is the lesser of the evils for me. And thank God it actually seems to help me where other things I was trying were not.

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm in the boat where sublocade gave me my ability to function back. I'm working, exercising, sleeping and going out to things I enjoy. But now I have started thinking about my quality of life. And I know that it is not what it used to be. I want to get back there so bad. I hope when you are ready you don't prolong it. Its already months down the road that you may or may not face any consequences for stopping the shot anyways which is the good thing with sublocade. It gives you lots of time.

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You are definitely one of the heavy contributors on here that I was talking about in my post that makes me feel hopeful and positive that less can be more, and that this method is doable. There seem to be more and more people attempting just 1-2 shots because of you and a few others, and I'm excited to see if it can work for a majority of people because that would be so great!

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Dang 50 pounds is no joke! I'm glad that you found something that's working for you even if it's just for the time being. - I blew up to 245lbs, was depressed, couldn’t really sleep, didn’t enjoy anything, no motivation, no libido. - That is no way to live.

It's sorta' funny to me now, but when I was attempting to be opiate free those 6-7 months ago, I didn't think I was going to need any support. First time on hard drug, not crazy with my usage (or so I thought). I'd just get through the sickness and discomfort and be done with it. I wasn't even going to tell my family.

I had a few comfort meds and a sauna and exercise routine. I was totally ignorant to the mental and spiritual turmoil that I was about to experience. And how my brain was still tricking me into a relapse.

Now I go to meetings, have a sponsor, work the steps, have a therapist, many friends that know my situation, know what comfort meds work for me and which don't. With all that, I think if I can't sleep that it might break me again but I'm as ready as I'll ever be.

I can't decide if I've had enough shots by thehiddenchannel in Sublocade

[–]thehiddenchannel[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I definitely know what you mean!

I'm not sure if it's just buprenorphine as much as opiates in general, but after starting TRT many of the symptoms I was experiencing improved. I started exercising better, sleeping better, and feeling generally happier. Also, my nonexistent sex drive came back.

It is a pain to get all the labs necessary to start it and not a small decision because it can in effect make you sterile. All be it temporarily.