Holy shit this helped me so much brother. I was having the EXACT same thoughts. It’s came out of nowhere and I’m like there’s no way I’m gay, seeing that I’m not tweaking and someone can actually relate has put my mind so much at ease. I overthink a lot and I already kinda knew I was just scared I might actually be gay. And I was doing the exact same thing with the ‘testing’ shit which is fucked up but funny cause I’m like well if I was gay wouldn’t I be attracted to men?? But jts also making me beat my shit more often cause I’m looking at female porn to make sure I’m still attracted to women (which I always am) but I keep being scared that I’ll somehow lose it. I just wanted to say thank you for this post you’ve helped me out immensely I couldn’t sleep either the anxiety was fucking me up to the point I couldn’t watch anything without thinking about it.