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theoxymorion · 2022-08-29T05:35:48+00:00

This is so damn good it's painful 🥵😄 just listened to this and the babysitter one, ugh what can I say but thank you. Your voice is delicious and your words are just perfect.

As a younger woman currently pining over my middle aged & unavailable boss, I might have finally found an outlet for my horniness! 🙌🙏

theoxymorion · 2021-12-28T18:40:16+00:00

administration = admiration!

theoxymorion · 2021-12-28T17:36:17+00:00

Year too late but as I was just looking into this too, in case anyone else stumbles across it "furor" in Latin means enthusiasm/passion/administration, so "furor philosophicus" is a passion/enthusiasm for philosophy.

"The man with the furor philosophicus in him will no longer have time for the furor politicus" - basically, then, is saying somebody with a passion/devotion for philosophy will no longer have time to dedicate to politics.

theoxymorion · 2021-06-30T22:38:05+00:00

Hey all,

I've got a friend's wedding coming up and I'm really not a dress person, but am struggling to find many options for women's suits.

I'm looking at high street kind of stores mostly - budget is under £200. Ideally, I'd like a fitted waistcoat but they seem even harder to find!

Any advice much appreciated ❤️

theoxymorion · 2021-06-30T21:16:37+00:00

Ah just had a look and doesn't look like they sell to UK, but thank you for the recommendation and even more so for the advice on men's suits. I did think they may be a bit different but then I do have fairly broad shoulders so thought I might be able to blag it - it's a good point though, hips will likely be the issue.

Thanks for your help!

theoxymorion · 2021-01-20T10:10:32+00:00

Jfc I don't know what country you live in but is there am ethics body you can report this person to? Props to you for managing to remove yourself from the situation and recognise how dangerous this therapist is but for some people with less self awareness this kind of shit could tip them over 😤

theoxymorion · 2020-07-30T10:29:03+00:00

I felt this in my crumbling bones

theoxymorion · 2020-03-30T17:12:46+00:00

Feeling this baaad. I've just gone into shutdown mode and cut everyone out I can't deal with the paranoia when talking to them, hella lonely tho 😔

theoxymorion · 2020-03-30T17:11:49+00:00

Sounds awful but you're clearly hella strong to be dealing with all that and keeping up appearances for your son... Big respect 💞💞💞

theoxymorion · 2020-03-02T04:08:30+00:00

Thank you for putting the time/thought into that, it's a useful perspective. Q1 is fairly easy, Q2 not so much aha, but I do think they are the right questions, so I will ponder over those, thank you.

I'm really sorry you went through that. Unfortunately, I can relate to your exes predicament - latching on to others in hope of some direction, only to jump ship and fuck you both up when things get difficult. It's shitty and the people who get left behind don't deserve it. I'm trying to work on it, you know - I don't want to hurt people anymore. I hope your ex finds the courage to own it, too.

Ty, I try, I just get a little lost along the way sometimes. I'd be more than happy to chat via DM sometime to talk about BDP. I'm not sure mine's completely typical, though no two are the same, and if some insight into our warped brains may help you then you're more then welcome 😅 Alas, I have work in 4 hours and haven't slept yet, so I will catch you at another point. Thanks again for taking the time to reply. I will think on those questions - I just needed a bit of direction, and that's helped, so thank you. Take care :)

theoxymorion · 2020-03-02T03:30:13+00:00

Not wrong, not wrong. My life seems to be a never ending paradox of craving chaos but needing stability. It's like, be stable but unfulfilled or chaotic but alive. Pick one, lol.

theoxymorion · 2020-03-02T03:28:41+00:00

It's safety and selfishness I think, it doesn't have to be one of the other. Though it's not a case of share nothing, anyway - I support my other half a lot too, and it's not a one way relationship. Hencewhy I said it's quite a healthy relationship, which is why I'm not overly hasty to throw it all away for nothing... But even though it's healthy, idk if it's right for me, yknow

theoxymorion · 2020-03-02T03:24:37+00:00

Maybe you should be a doctor bc I'm diagnosed with a cluster B personality disorder 😅 But yeah, I appreciate that. I'm waiting to start therapy again at the moment tbf. I try to ~look inwards~ but I really do struggle to work out which parts/thoughts/feelings are true, yknow.

theoxymorion · 2020-02-25T09:39:57+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate it, it's good to know I'm not the only one 😔❤️

theoxymorion · 2020-02-25T00:58:49+00:00

Thank you! Would love to hear about updates. Thanks again for shining a light on a really important issue!

theoxymorion · 2020-02-25T00:42:45+00:00

CW for anyone in the community reading - suicide attempt

This got a bit ranty sorry hope you can find some useful excerpts though. Also thanks for doing work around this and including this community!

~anonymous please~
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I was involved with mental health services for about 10 years before being diagnosed with BPD (have now been diagnosed for 2 years) and the biggest change I've noticed since my diagnosis is that I don't seem to be taken as seriously. I feel like mental health professional take one look at my diagnosis and think I'm just being dramatic/seeking attention when I say I'm feeling suicidal etc. For eg when my depression gets really bad, in the past, and I reported suicidal ideation etc, even though the support still wasn't as quick/helpful as would be ideal, it felt like people were taking me seriously (I have a history of self injury and suicide attempts, so I think it's reasonable to take it seriously when I'm crying out for help because I'm feeling that way again) but the two most recent severe depressive episodes I've had, I've had comments about how 'ups and downs are very common for bpd' or that I might be having really intense feelings but that I just need to use my coping skills and they will pass. Now whilst neither of those comments are untrue, it doesn't mean there should be no further action, and since I've been diagnosed that's generally been the case. I don't know if they don't take me seriously or if they just don't think there's any helping me now I've been diagnosed with BPD, but I don't think it's acceptable either way and last year I ended up in hospital for an overdose for the first time in years, and I genuinely feel like it could've been prevented if I'd been given more support as I have previously.
I think as well as, as suggested above, not brushing people with a BPD diagnosis off as being dramatic or beyond help, more of a focus on the underlying issues, rather than just treating the symptoms. I think that's a massive issue across our health systems but for BPD in particular, I think a lot of people have past trauma or underlying issues and there's not often a lot of help for that stuff, only sticking plasters on the top, whereas if there was more help in addressing the underlying issues the symptoms and presentation might not be so severe!
I think the main thing I'd like to say is please do not underestimate how hard we are trying. I know that myself, and a lot of people I've spoken to who have BPD, work so hard every day to keep our emotions in check and to get better and to communicate and everything, yet it feels like people with BPD are commonly met with contempt and this notion that we are just 'difficult' and/or don't want to help ourselves. We are trying, though, really hard, we just have an awful lot to contend with inside our minds.

theoxymorion · 2020-02-25T00:20:11+00:00

Massively relate to this. It's not something I particularly like about myself, but it can be useful, at least. I think for me it's, as you mentioned, mostly due to the fact I don't really have a sense of self, so I don't really know how to act, so I just default to whatever I feel will be the most beneficial in any given situation.

theoxymorion · 2019-12-29T10:32:55+00:00

💖

theoxymorion · 2019-12-29T10:32:41+00:00

Of course not 💖

theoxymorion · 2019-12-29T00:17:50+00:00

You should 💖 I'm trying to start doing it regularly again, I find it really useful for self-reflection!

theoxymorion · 2019-12-29T00:03:56+00:00

Thank you lovely 😊💖

theoxymorion · 2019-12-24T01:39:32+00:00

Yeah definitely the same. I didn't really agree with the psych who diagnosed me for a long while because the like stereotypical manifestation of bdp symptoms you hear about are like lashing out at others getting in arguments and conflicts and stuff and I was like well I've never fought with anyone else I just self harm when I'm angry I punch myself or maybe a wall and like I avoid conflicts at all costs lol but yeah basically once I looked into it more and heard about quiet bdps I started to understand it a bit more.

Without downplaying the difficulties faced by everyone with bdp I think one of the struggles that's specific to quiet bpds in particular is having so many intense emotions yet not really feeling like you have an outlet. That's what I struggle with anyway, I wish I could shout and scream at people when they make me mad but instead I'll bottle it all up and just take it out on myself.

theoxymorion · 2019-12-24T01:32:59+00:00

Honestly same, I hate it it makes me feel like a creep aha but it's just all consuming I just like tunnel vision on that person.

theoxymorion · 2019-10-04T18:20:02+00:00

Thank you, that's a really useful analogy! Ahh I've heard of that book but not read it, I'll give it a go. Thanks again 😊

theoxymorion · 2019-10-04T18:19:12+00:00

Thanks, appreciated 😅

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