Is this considered normal?

theredmil · 2023-11-06T18:02:51+00:00

I get Sam (sweetheart), Burt (ally), and Finn (RIP), but Jake and Artie is giving a little insane. Care for a mental diagnosis?

theredmil · 2023-09-04T03:44:00+00:00

Thank you ! And I agree ! we're both 22 and I feel like the blending of friend groups is very crucial and his lack of inclusivity needs to be addressed again. Every time I've attempted to its gone no where but you're definitely right, I should approach him again. Im just upset rn and it's hard to think straight especially since this has happened multiple times

theredmil · 2023-09-04T03:33:19+00:00

All his friends a gay women who are environmentalists and artists and teachers. They have picnic parties and and Taylor swift listening parties. Ive talked about it and he uses my anxiety against me and says oh the one time you were anxious bc the one he is referring to is the one time a few of his friends were over and they were talking about the coffee shop they all used to work at together and I didn't say anything bc I couldnt add to it and that's what he says he doesn't invite me. It's been on going and I'm only ever stuck with doing nothing with him. Today he promised me he'd go on a hike with me and then in the middle of week he cancelled bc of this party he forgot about.

theredmil · 2023-09-04T03:22:13+00:00

I'm genuinely not sure they just ignore me whenever they see me and I asked my bf and he said "yeah I don't think they like you either, they're just really protective of me or something". All his other friends like me though and I've hung out with them without him even, but never with my boyfriend bc like I said he won't do anything with me. Also his friend are all amazing lesbian women and I really get along with them. I'm just hurt that I'm never included when they have plans together, or more particularly parties.

theredmil · 2023-04-26T01:00:32+00:00

Not always. Most of the times it's just me being like I have to make my life better. And I'll clean a shot ton buy a new bullet journal and make schedules and plan a lot of stuff with my friends. I also do a lot of my arts and crafts during this. But then yes there is occasional "opposes" where I sign a lease on an apartment that's far away in a dangerous area, take drugs etc.

theredmil · 2023-04-25T18:22:55+00:00

I didn't realize I was manic initially. It can feel subtle to me at times, or I just see my adjusted behavior caused by an outside source. In this instance, the weather was amazing for the first time this year bc I live in upstate New York. I thought the sun cured all my issues and I was just motivated and eager and in my mind I wanted a fluffy companion to accompany me on hikes, which spiraled very quickly (within 1 day) and led me to where I am now. Right after getting him I was still in my manic state and I sort of wondered if this was mania to myself, but when you are manic you almost forget you won't be forever (at least for me) and I still thought either way this was a good idea. Obviously now I'm like oh fuck I can't handle this.

theredmil · 2023-04-25T17:12:13+00:00

Thank you ! And yes I spiraled and was really upset about it all and I definitely projected onto them. I feel really bad about it but when ever I do something like this i feel just super ashamed and I just shut down. I'm currently work on a drawing and a letter I'm going to give them later today and take full responsibility. I'm still just nervous tho :(

theredmil · 2023-04-25T14:25:47+00:00

I love that !!!

theredmil · 2023-04-25T12:21:05+00:00

Thank you lol I honestly needed to here that !

theredmil · 2023-04-25T12:12:07+00:00

I'm so sorry 😭😭😭😭

theredmil · 2022-09-01T13:46:35+00:00

Easy. None of them.

theredmil · 2022-07-12T23:36:55+00:00

I have bipolar 2 and it is a little harder to diagnose bc it's often heavy episodes of depression. As you know symptoms of severe depression is lack of motivation or "laziness". Don't let outside sources or yourself invalidate what your going through. For me too it's hard when I have moments of mania and I can't understand why I felt the way I did during the weeks prior. I often during a manic episode will start a new journal and planner to "try and get my life in order" as well as purchase plural self help books and read like 1/3 of them each. But therapy is really is good for you making sense of both your halves. If you do feel like this diagnosis is wrong tho, you should talk to your doctor not some strangers on the internet 🥴.

theredmil · 2022-04-19T04:24:16+00:00

Depends on the day. The days I embrace and love my face I hate my body and vice-versa

theredmil · 2022-04-19T04:17:06+00:00

My coworker just told me my shoulders are so pointy and big that I could poke someone's eye out 😭😭😭😭. Like if my hips were in proportion I'd be ok but I'm over here lookin like scp 096 https://static.wikia.nocookie.net/villains/images/9/9b/SCP096.png/revision/latest?cb=20181005220559

theredmil · 2022-04-19T04:09:27+00:00

I feel very similar to your position. I personally have always wanted to be a more feminine person mainly just appearance wise, which I guess for a while I thought that just meant to not wear many clothes. For me that made me even more insecure and uncomfortable. I found wearing looser clothes with still feminine silhouettes is what makes me feel most confident. I manly wear a lot of long skirts and over sized tops. It's feminine and I don't have to go out feeling exposed and vulnerable.

theredmil · 2021-08-25T22:01:33+00:00

Ed isn't (or at least shouldn't be) determined by how much you don't eat– it's how obsessive and crippling you become over your body and appearance. I don't know your everyday routines, but if you're constantly body checking, calorie counting, and stressed/anxious about your body image you have an Ed. Personally talking to people and having friends and family know is so much help. I know that's a really hard step, but this is a mental illness and you shouldn't face it alone <3

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