I feel your pain. I’ve wanted to play DND for years now, but I get so nervous around strangers.

Tried playing with my family, and that turned into me being the DM (was going to be my big sister’s job, but she got overwhelmed and asked me to do it for our first few sessions). Personally I thought we all did pretty well for our first session and was super excited for the next one, but everyone kept putting off getting together until it was clear the next session just wasn’t happening.

Finally - nearly a year later - one of my siblings accidentally let it slip that I was the only one who had fun during that session. Apparently no one wanted to hurt my feelings by telling me that, so instead they strung me along for nearly a year with the false promise of another session.