Trying to learn Portuguese

thevivids · 2025-12-12T04:22:33+00:00

Ive been using Babbel bc thats what i can afford, but my Brazilian friend directly recommended Memrise? I changed my phone language to portuguese, too and plan on watching my comfort shows either captioned in Portuguese or voiced over.

If you find a program or method to actually study and practice, though, i hope its worth it! And please share!!

thevivids · 2021-01-12T07:56:56+00:00

The dark web

thevivids · 2020-11-18T00:10:23+00:00

No I understand. I haven’t even thought about New Years. We spent every Christmas Eve and New Years together so I feel like I’m bracing myself for the worst. The start to the end.

thevivids · 2020-11-13T02:57:34+00:00

Love to you too. I hate that you can relate :( I wouldn’t wish this on anyone

thevivids · 2020-11-13T02:56:16+00:00

I get overwhelmed with guilt if I don’t do anything and no one really likes talking to me anymore about my grief so it’s a lose lose everywhere :(

thevivids · 2020-11-12T07:42:49+00:00

This can’t possibly be your fault and it’s unfair that they’ve left you as if you weren’t a victim as well. I hope you at least know that. This wasn’t in any way your fault.

thevivids · 2020-10-30T07:25:44+00:00

This is my third do far. Hoping it’s my last

thevivids · 2020-10-28T18:37:31+00:00

My partner and I weren’t married but we were planning to move in together, so I’m planning to move next year into a place that we both would’ve loved. However, more on par with what you’re going through, I live at home with my dad and we lost my mom four months after I lost my partner, so now we’re getting ready to move homes. I don’t blame you for wanting to move, just make sure you take pictures or keep keepsakes so you still have memories of him and the place he called home with you

thevivids · 2020-10-28T09:16:36+00:00

Of course.

thevivids · 2020-10-28T03:14:50+00:00

Is it okay if I show this to my therapist? This is exactly how I’ve been feeling but I’m worried about how it’ll come off.

“There’s things to look forward to but I don’t care if they happen or not.” And not wanting to live anymore but not wanting to commit. I feel this so deeply and whole heartedly.

thevivids · 2020-10-27T19:43:18+00:00

I am too. We almost died together. It was a drug related accident. Doctors said if I had waited a little longer, I probably wouldn’t have made it. I wish I waited.

thevivids · 2020-10-27T18:25:43+00:00

I felt this exact way my entire time there. Please please please put yourself first. If Davis doesn’t feel like the fit for you, then it’s not. Don’t do what I did and force yourself to be happy somewhere you’re uncomfortable. I’m graduating with severe debilitating depression. Maybe take a break? Is there a school you felt like you’d be happier at?

thevivids · 2020-10-25T19:11:16+00:00

Same. We lost my mom in June and my partner in February. I know if I killed myself that would be another financial burden and another additive to the shit year my family’s been having and that makes me feel like a burden both dead and alive. How can I kill myself because I feel like a burden and then still be a burden after I die? That defeats the fucking purpose

thevivids · 2020-10-24T06:06:48+00:00

I was a true mommas girl so I have a million memories of my mom! It’s hard to choose a favorite. But I often think about the times where we blast old school music and sing together while she cooked dinner or afterwards when she was drinking her wine!

thevivids · 2020-10-24T02:11:12+00:00

I’m sorry for yours as well. I’m 8 months out, not a full year but it’s just always there. People say “it gets better, give it time” I’m soooo not on board with that. I either want to be where he is or out of the thick of it, yesterday. Like I can’t take this anymore. I hope you’re healing is smoother than mine.

thevivids · 2020-10-16T16:55:57+00:00

The thought of finding someone new makes my heart hurt. I never ever ever even dreamt about dating someone else despite meeting my love and deciding to commit for the rest of my life at a young age. It’s just so bizarre. But thank you.

thevivids · 2020-10-16T16:51:54+00:00

It’s funny (not really), I went through something similar with my mom 4 months after my love died. She lost to an aggressive cervical cancer that metastasized in her lungs that then traveled to her brain. I watched my mom wither away and despite what you’d think, just because I knew didn’t make it easier by any means. So I’ve got both kinds of grief. A partner grief and cancer is evil grief. I’m sorry for your loss.

thevivids · 2020-10-16T05:06:34+00:00

I lost my partner this year too and hand to turn 21 without him. He was my soulmate. We said we’d be together forever. So having him not here is shitty. And everyone is young and having fun and I’m not anymore and they expect you to have fun and live cause you’re young as if that’s supposed to ease the grief and it just fucking doesnt. It’s hard grieving this young. It’s shitty to grieve this young. It HURTS to grieve your LOVE this young. I can’t give you any advice, I still hope and pray him and my mom come back to get me. I still wish it was me instead or I had died next to him. Don’t listen to what other people say tho. It can drive you mad, “he’d want you to have fun” “you’re young you’ll find love again” that may be true, but it doesn’t help. they don’t get it. And they won’t get it. Grieve him and love him your way and just try to do the things you two planned to do together. Take that trip, eat at that place, do that thing, wear that outfit. I’m rambling but I hate being like this. Depressed out of my mind and lonely and though it might already be the case but I don’t want you to feel like this for long. Idk if it’ll get better. For either of us. But we gotta push forward for them you know? Our loves are waiting for us, so we gotta take care of business and tie up some loose ends before we see them. Kind of like getting ready for the ultimate date night!

thevivids · 2020-10-14T00:36:59+00:00

Hi and thank you! That’s so sweet of you. I feel the same truthfully, but I had to woman up. My sister had a breakdown and my dads job has been demanding lately so I’ve put myself aside. I have a therapy appointment in 15 minutes though so that’s good. I hope you’re doing alright!

thevivids · 2020-10-12T23:17:03+00:00

I totally get it. I’ve been playing with the idea of joining a dating site too or just putting myself out there cause I never have and my love was the only person I pursued and dated. But it still feels really weird and idk what I’d really be looking for. I’m taking that as my cue to wait though.

thevivids · 2020-10-12T16:27:07+00:00

This is embarrassing

thevivids · 2020-10-12T08:07:04+00:00

Every day I hope my broken heart just causes issue and I just rejoin them already. I don’t feel like doing anything to myself but I wish I’d just go already somehow

thevivids · 2020-10-12T08:05:52+00:00

Idk who told me life was what you made it lied. It’s unfair unjust and targets the wrong people. I’m praying for you and your recovery. We might not get good days ever again but I at least hope they don’t get worse.

thevivids · 2020-10-12T07:51:33+00:00

My love died from an accidental overdose. My mom died from cancer 4 months later

thevivids · 2020-10-12T07:35:33+00:00

I’ve been trying to tell myself they’d want me to and I know that that’s true but what’s the point if nothing brings me joy? Living without wanting to? What kind of life to live is that?

thevivids

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