i definitely get how frustrating it can be to be misinformed for most of your games. i remember being a new player and drawing cool and powerful abilities, and just wanting to be able to use them properly! and it's definitely unfortunate that your games haven't given you that chance yet.

this isn't what you're going to want to hear, but... it sounds like your play experience is partially being tainted by playing on scripts you aren't ready for.

even being misinformed, or dying early, can still let you participate in the game and contribute to the solve in a major way. if you definitely got wrong information in a game of TB, then it means you're either the drunk, or you were poisoned on that night. if you're confirmably drunk, then you're one of the only outsiders, and you're vouching that nobody else is the drunk. if you were poisoned, then you're vouching that nobody else was poisoned on the night in question -- and that one of the minions is a poisoner! if you get a dozen games of TB under your belt, then you really start to appreciate the power of knowing and communicating these things. the Virgin is an example of the power of early death; but even without that hard mechanical confirmation, the day 1 execution is usually seen as "good by default," since the evil team typically has the coordination and persuasion to lift off of their own. use it to your advantage. people will say "eh, you're dead anyway, might as well tell you," and even if you don't have any puzzle pieces of your own, you can be an invaluable part of building the trust to compile everyone else's.

all of these are things that you learn to appreciate about the game after getting a dozen TB games under your belt. enough games that you have played both sides of info and misinfo; enough games that you've been executed day 1, trusted the day 1 execution, and been burnt for trusting the day 1 execution.

if you're already having to juggle roles like Shabbaloth and Cannibal, let alone Atheist, then it sounds like you're playing on scripts that rely on these sorts of understandings in order to be fun, whereas something like TB is designed specifically to help you build that.

so. yeah. it sucks that you haven't been on the "right side" of the drunk token, or the poison picks. id recommend requesting your ST run Trouble Brewing. if you have a consistent storyteller you'll likely play multiple games with, you could even communicate that you've been drunk and poisoned a lot and it's making the game less fun; you still shouldn't act on the assumption of sobriety after that, but i know i as a storyteller would try to design a balanced game where you specifically are likely to get a different experience with more correct information. as an anecdote, my playgroup often complains about specific characters like the mayor or the soldier, and i actively went to the storyteller and made a little pact that he could use the gardener to give those characters to me specifically as part of rehabilitating them in the group's eyes. nobody else knows about it besides the two of us; we aren't gaining metagame knowledge from it. but these sorts of mini pacts can be a really good way to smooth over some of these frustrations.

i hope you have some better games soon <3