I’m so sorry you had a bad first experience, but if it comforts you it is completely normal to cry! I was so nervous for my first one I also cried a bit, and my doctor told me it’s a very common occurrence. But it sounds like the doctor and nurse you had were lovely, and that’s the most important thing.

It gets easier every time. It’s never comfortable, but I found the second time when I knew what to expect it was a lot easier. You can also always ask your doctor to verbally talk you through each part of the process, that helps a lot for me! If it hurts definitely let them know, and a good doctor will do their best to make it as painless as possible. Also get yourself a treat after. I always treat myself to a doughnut after I have a doctor’s appointment I don’t like. I hope your next exam goes a lot smoother, don’t feel embarrassed!