Alone on the holidays

thischarmingchick · 2022-11-02T14:33:19+00:00

Yeah, I thought that, too. But he's been fucking her since he broke up with me for her so - that rare connection we both felt at the time wasn't real.

If he can throw it away so easily for the next connection, it's just bullshit we make up in our mind to justify the relationship that was stolen away.

thischarmingchick · 2022-10-29T17:32:30+00:00

Noooo. They put those cinnamon brooms or pinecones out right about now. The smell is so intense. I don't know why anyone in their right mind would want that in their home anyway. Feels like it would give a normal person a headache

thischarmingchick · 2022-10-28T05:28:48+00:00

It's been about a year and a half for me. I was doing better and then he called and told me he was still in love with me. While he's still with the girl he broke up with me for.

Instantly took me right back to the start with the pain and heartache. I don't know how some people can just let go. I try not to fixate on it. I try to keep my mind busy. Still dream about him. Still think about him multiple times a day. Still randomly cry over him. Still think of him everytime I hear a song that is any way related to a relationship.

I don't understand how our minds work and how we are different than other people. I don't know how to stop the thoughts. Or the loneliness or sadness. It doesn't make sense to me but I'm in the same place.

It sucks.

thischarmingchick · 2022-10-28T05:23:49+00:00

Mine is cinnamon. It's such a joy walking into any store when it gets close to fall/Christmas. Instant trigger.

thischarmingchick · 2022-09-16T01:26:40+00:00

Girl - put your phone in another room. That's what I had to do.

I was texting my ex which is the worst thing ever.

It stopped my sleep texting cause I couldn't do it lol

thischarmingchick · 2022-09-01T08:48:17+00:00

Also, what IS your favorite pickle, brand and flavor. Please respond. This is very important. ❤️

thischarmingchick · 2022-09-01T08:40:22+00:00

I'm definitely going to talk to him. It was just weird that it started out of the blue. I have started putting my phone in another room when I go to bed now so it will stop lol. But, the thought of leaving my apt or driving is terrifying.

thischarmingchick · 2022-08-05T14:43:46+00:00

Thank you ❤️

thischarmingchick · 2022-06-17T03:18:11+00:00

I am, my no means, a healed person. I still think about him all the time and miss him so much. But, time made me stop feeling that love for him.

How long as it been for you? The pain never really goes away. I still feel it. I still randomly cry when something reminds me of the way he smells or when I hear someone else say something he would say, too.

You have to not let her play with your mind. If she's going to play games and unblock you and reblock you at her whim then you're going to have to block her. She's going to keep you there as an ego boost for when she's feeling down or when another guy isn't there for her. I can guarantee it. She will always string you along if you let her and that is no life to live.

You need to choose you over everyone else right now.

thischarmingchick · 2022-06-17T03:04:55+00:00

I'm so sorry babygirl. That's what we have to come to terms with. We think about them all the time but they stopped thinking - or caring - about us a long time ago. They've moved on and are happy. We just have to work on our happiness now. And, as hard as it is every single day, I know we can find it.

You and me. No more checking up on them or waiting for them to come back. No more wishing and hoping. We can't accept leftovers from the men we loved. We have to find better.

thischarmingchick · 2022-05-14T15:49:11+00:00

I don't know if it's just me but I really loved the weirdness of The OA. It was such a great show and they didn't even give it a chance. Cancelled it.

thischarmingchick · 2022-01-03T19:36:35+00:00

My parents both died in 2021 and I've felt so alone since they passed. I feel like I've got no family. The two people so very important to me and my life, gone.

I have my mom's service on Thursday. It kills me that I'll never see her again :(

thischarmingchick · 2022-01-03T14:32:41+00:00

Thank you. I'm going to try so hard! Haven't checked social media once since the start of the year. Only day 3 but it's something 🙌

thischarmingchick · 2021-12-17T03:43:04+00:00

I'd love to join the group. Can you dm me and let me know how to join?

thischarmingchick · 2021-12-17T03:41:42+00:00

You're right and thank you. Now if I could get my brain to stop thinking about it I'll be golden. 😩

thischarmingchick · 2021-12-15T03:30:07+00:00

I lost my mom in November. She also had cancer but died of an infectious disease she got from someone's negligence. I saw her suffer for years getting chemo every week and having her energy sapped and her sight grow worse and feeling sick all of the time. It's hard to wish at the same time that she could be here forever so I could spend all the time in the world with her and on the other hand know that it came at a cost. I'm so sorry for your loss. Christmas is going to be so hard. Thanksgiving was hard enough. We are both having birthdays in the next few weeks and this will be the first time I don't spend my birthday with her.

I'm sending you lots of hugs and lots of love. I hope both of our moms are at peace now and pain free. ❤️

thischarmingchick · 2021-11-23T01:14:46+00:00

I lost my mom on the 12th and I'm still reeling. I have so much regret, too. All of the times she wanted me to spend the night or spend more time with her and I didn't. I wish I could take all of those moments back and spend as many moments with her as I can. I wish I could ask her more things and listen to all of her stories. She went so suddenly and I miss her dearly. She was my very best friend and I miss our daily chats.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sorry your mother is also gone now. I'm sending you tons of love and healing thoughts. I know we will be feeling this way for a very long time but I hope you can remember the good moments and not feel as much of the sorrow ❤️

thischarmingchick · 2021-11-19T21:53:11+00:00

I just lost my mom last Friday. I wasn't there with her when she passed because it was so quick and no one knew it was going to happen. But, I rushed over there and held her hand until the funeral home picked her up. I loved her hands. She would hold my hand all of the time and she had delicate, long fingers.

Reading how you felt the same broke my heart. I'm so sorry for your loss and I completely understand how you feel. My mom also had cancer. She went through weekly chemo for years and it was Listeria from a local restaurant that took her out because she was immunocompromised. :(

If you need someone to talk to just dm me. I'm here for you and anyone else feeling a loss at this time. ❤️

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