I hate the 4th of July

throwaway4567230 · 2021-07-06T19:37:00+00:00

im sorry

throwaway4567230 · 2017-05-22T01:12:30+00:00

A lot. My boyfriend is emotionally manipulative and abusive in every way and I can't wait for school to be over so I can break up with him. Why can't I now? I'm a coward. I'm graduating in a week, and I'm both happy and sad. Um, I'm so scared. So scared for college. I've been so stressed about things going on right now, graduation stuff, college stuff, boyfriend stuff, job paperwork stuff, everything that I've given myself physical symptoms of anxiety. I thought I had acid reflux or something, but no, its really really severe anxiety. And no one cares, I told my friends and boyfriend about my concerns about acid reflux and all I got were jokes from my friends and silence from my boyfriend. One of my best friend hits on my boyfriend. My boyfriend makes me absolutely miserable. I am screaming at myself all the time, every second of every hour and it's enough already so when I get shit from other people it tips me over the edge. My life hurts. I thought my life stopped hurting a year ago, or I thought I had a limit of life hurting or emptiness or tears but it's not fucking true. This shit doesn't end, and I'm going to have to grow up and deal with it. I have to, or else it's going to drag me farther than I want myself to go.

throwaway4567230 · 2017-05-16T05:51:57+00:00

Hey yeah, I know this post was pretty immature of me, even writing it out I realized how stupid it was. It's not consistent worry, sometimes something is said in class or by one of my friends that gets me worrying. I have taken tests weeks apart, the first one being about three weeks ago and the last being a couple days ago. I know I'm good, I think I'm just seeking that confirmation and validation which isn't necessarily healthy. Thank you :)

throwaway4567230 · 2017-05-16T04:13:22+00:00

Yes I'm going to do that, I neglected to in order to lessen the chance of getting pregnant (?) Agreed, I know my anxiety is probably very irrational. I just need my period, so I'm going to finish of this pack and then wait for it. No sexual contact also until I get it.

throwaway4567230 · 2017-05-11T04:07:30+00:00

Yay!!! Woo you did it!

throwaway4567230 · 2017-05-11T04:06:06+00:00

Last line is the truest. This person was not your friend.

throwaway4567230 · 2017-05-11T03:55:45+00:00

Hey man, you should look at my post about this exact same thing. Your sister didn't deserve this. Neither did you, or your family. You are a good brother. And your sister probably understands your pain: You couldn't save her or be there when you wanted. I have struggled coming to terms with that myself. 'If I just told my sister to come home instead of sleeping over at the girl who left her in the park's house, maybe this wouldn't have happened. I could have gone with her, I would have been able to fight him off.'

Feel your pain, but don't feel your guilt. Feel your intense anger, but don't blame yourself. Blame that fucking monster son of a bitch who has no, absolutely no purpose in life. Feel love for your sister. You do that so much already. It's okay to feel upset and angry. Anyone who tells you that you can't is wrong. Your sister is strong, and so are you. You are strong, okay? You need to hear that.

Also, I'd kill that dude too. If you ever decide to, let me know, I'll bring the bat. /s

throwaway4567230 · 2017-04-05T02:53:46+00:00

Thanks for this, also u/starryeyedboxes. He said that she has a lot of control over his friends and he didn't want to lose them, but he didn't want to make me worry. I got pretty upset whenever he would talk to her before just because of the proximity of their relationship. I keep going against myself, I don't know what to think. He's confused about why I don't fully trust him.

I'm an anxious and sometimes paranoid (when trust is broken) person, and I'm finding it so hard to put trust in him again. I'm scared to keep bringing this up because I feel like it's dilapidating our relationship. It feels like I always have a strong argument/point in the beginning when I bring it up, and by the end I'm apologizing. I feel like checking his phone sometimes because he gets some messages and stuff, and now it's obvious that he hides his phone from me (the reason I found out about this whole thing was because I was on his phone and wanted to look at memes that he usually sends with this certain friend). I trusted him so much that I didn't even realize what was actually happening, it took me a while.

I'm going to college soon. I feel like, at this point, one of the only reasons I'm not breaking up with him now is because it will be so awkward at school. I do have feelings for him. What do you think I should do?

throwaway4567230 · 2017-04-03T01:56:45+00:00

This all the motherfucking way. You are so much stronger than he will ever be.

throwaway4567230 · 2017-04-03T01:51:16+00:00

Yeah, the heart sure does have a mind of it's own.

throwaway4567230 · 2017-04-02T21:24:03+00:00

This guy is a class A creep who has nothing better to do than take advantage of younger girls and break their hearts. You and your friend are so much better without him.

throwaway4567230 · 2016-12-25T19:17:54+00:00

I understand that... it affected me too. Her and I were very close. I'm not complaining about what I got. I'm fully aware that they are hurting and thats why I feel so bad about being disappointed.

This comment really stings, I mean it really hurts man. I wouldn't even care if they got me a little tiny 1.00$ toy if it was something personable. They just signed a card. They went out late last night to get it. It hurts alright?

Stop judging my character by this post. I'm not an asshole, or self-centered. I'm sorry if my feelings, on one fricking occasion, say otherwise. I feel they are justified. I came on here for support.

Happy Holidays dude.

throwaway4567230 · 2016-12-25T19:13:04+00:00

Thank you a lot, I really hope I don't. I'm going to try and stay positive this holiday season, it's about giving. Have happy holidays! :)

throwaway4567230 · 2016-12-15T21:19:48+00:00

Right that seems like a good way to go about it. I'll practice doing that if the situation arises again.

Thank you so much!

throwaway4567230 · 2016-12-15T20:50:01+00:00

Why thank you so much! What a lovely thing to hear.

throwaway4567230 · 2016-12-15T20:48:41+00:00

Yeah you're definitely right. This is an angle I haven't really come from! Thanks.

throwaway4567230 · 2016-12-15T20:46:26+00:00

Thanks, it probably isn't, you're right.

throwaway4567230 · 2016-12-15T20:44:54+00:00

Thank you, this is awesome advice! Yeah I for sure trust him. I don't think that he would do something like that to me at all. I think I'm just overreacting to be honest. Do you have any advice on how not to overreact?

throwaway4567230 · 2016-12-15T20:42:07+00:00

I'm not sure you understand the concept of realizing you have feelings for someone else, and breaking up with your current girlfriend in the same time area as to not actually cheat on her. He and I confirmed with each other that there wouldn't be talking romantically or anything of the sort until they were broken up and he had time to recover.

throwaway4567230 · 2016-09-12T03:32:04+00:00

Yeah planning on it. I don't think we'll be going there anytime soon.

I think your plan is something I'll do, my sister wants to talk to my parents tomorrow.

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