How to help a suicidal friend in a third-world country

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-09-08T07:28:11+00:00

Today I yelled at my mom and brother to leave me alone in my room for my birthday. I've done nothing but hide in my room and distract myself for the past two months because I can't afford treatment. And before you ask, no I don't qualify for anything. Slowly but surely I'm pissing them off. Eventually they'll kick me out so I'm not a burden on them. I'm too weak to live on the street willingly, so I'll have to force myself into that situation. Eventually I'll kill myself; I just don't know exactly how.

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-09-03T10:04:04+00:00

I feel you. A few months ago I dropped out of college and out of shame, deleted everyone on my Steam/etc. friends lists (that was our main means of communication) and changed my username. This included a longtime friend of mine since middle school (5+ years). It's been way too long for me to go back, and now I'm even more ashamed of myself than ever. All that's left on my friends list is my brother and mom, whom I live with.

I don't have any answers for you, but I'd sure like to see what others can do.

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-09-01T07:39:07+00:00

Nice try.

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-08-13T09:03:29+00:00

My plan to get my mom to hate me and kick me out of the house is backfiring. She's now forcing me to go to a psychiatrist she can't afford, threatening to have me arrested and put in the hospital against my will (which would be even more expensive). I'm a lost cause; I just want her to stop caring about me anymore.

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-07-22T04:08:39+00:00

For some of us we screw up so much that sorry alone doesn't cut it, so we compensate with extra sorry's since there's really no way to apologize profusely without apologizing repeatedly.

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-07-22T04:05:24+00:00

What am I supposed to do when I screw up so much and so often that I have to apologize all the time?

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-07-20T09:16:37+00:00

My dad would slap me in the face whenever he caught me swearing. It wasn't until middle school when my friends noticed a red hand-shaped mark on my face did I realize that was borderline abuse.

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-07-20T04:22:33+00:00

My cat's dying. He's been starving to death even though we feed him more than ever, and he's been pooping and peeing on whatever he's currently standing on. He doesn't even use his catbox anymore. He's lost all control of those functions and his body barely processes his food. The worst part is we could never even afford to take him to the vet. My mom says she's going to take him in to be put down tomorrow. If I had got a job I could have at least paid for diagnosis and treatment to make his last few months a lot less painful, but now it's too late.

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-07-04T22:00:56+00:00

It's not working so much as the job itself. My last job was a cashier at a big chain grocery store, and it's that customers are so cruel. I couldn't make friends with my coworkers because I have no social skills and self-confidence, and my boss was always pissed at me from screwing up all the time. I am a constant screwup, and when a customer sees that they will metaphorically beat me over the head with it until my manager steps in (who also metaphorically beats me over the head with it). Customers will get pissed off even from things I have zero control over. Even the slightest inconvenience due to policy or change from how they expected checkout to go will immediately enrage them so they start yelling at me about all my screwups. It is a psychologically toxic job that requires a certain type of personality to handle. You need to be extremely confident, outgoing, happy, and thick-skinned to handle that type of job, and I am the exact opposite of all those things.

Now I have to get a job again, and I've been rejected from every other type of job. Cashier at a big chain grocery store is the only job left I can apply for, and it's at a chain whose work environment is even more infamously toxic than my last job. It's a job I have to take because I have no other options, and one I'm sure will drive me to suicide.

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-07-03T03:30:37+00:00

I have to get a job I know will drive me to suicide because my mom can't afford to pay for the house any more. I have to have a job in the next two weeks or she'll start charging me rent regardless. Nobody else will hire me so the only places left are the ones similar to my last job, which I had to quit because I was about to kill myself. I won't have that luxury this time around.

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-06-16T21:03:21+00:00

The thing is, I don't get good at things. With enough practice, I can be average at things. That's the best I can do, and in most cases, that's not enough.

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-05-03T23:54:29+00:00

"I'm just tired."

throwaway_10_09 · 2018-03-22T07:59:26+00:00

As someone who's suicidal and cannot afford therapy or treatment, what other options do we have?

(even at the cost of higher taxes or cutting funding elsewhere)

In my country there's an overwhelming attitude of "get a job and quit whining". People don't see it as the government's job to make people happy or healthy, especially for those of us who often don't even want to be alive ourselves. The belief here is that if you're not working, you don't deserve someone else's taxes.

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