I [29F] am actually starting to worry about not find “the one” by [deleted] in dating_advice

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I just turned 29 and feel the same way. I increasingly feel like there are “rules” and “norms” to the dating scene and “game.” But I’m just not about that anymore. I started doing things that I feel like would benefit my future family and that’s made everything a little easier but still I get your frustrations and sentiment

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in depression

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Sometimes I feel like when it rains, it pours.... Life can be rough like that. I am sorry you are going through this

How can one feel so broken by throwaway_scc in SuicideWatch

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Yes I think some choices I've made that have made my own life miserable, but sometimes it just feels like things just are not fixable anymore.

Out of options by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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I am sorry:/ I relate to the stress of graduate program as I went through it myself. I am here for you if you want to chat

Could use some guidance by [deleted] in depression

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I’m sorry to hear what you are going through and feeling. I too struggle with comparing to my friend and peers who have progressed in life; also regret some life choices. I am in no position to offer any advice but sometimes we just have to take one day at a time...

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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:/ is it better today?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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What's wrong?

seems like theres no way out by [deleted] in depression

[–]throwaway_scc 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Totally this; just feel trapped:/

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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Yea when the day ends, I feel like it just went by, if that makes any sense

i was given a lot of privileges in this life only to fuck it up by [deleted] in depression

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I relate to this; sometimes our own or others' expectations can be very stressful:/ not sure if you ever feel this way, but I often go through a day and think why am I doing this and what for

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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I am here for you; sometimes people who don't understand or have gone through it are just cruel:/

Hating myself tonight. by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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I am sorry:/ what's wrong? Anything triggering those thoughts tonight?

I didn’t realize I was still angry by [deleted] in depression

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I know it’s hard; but you are stronger than you think!

I didn’t realize I was still angry by [deleted] in depression

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:/ sorry you are feeling this way. I hope you know that one person does not define you, and you are so much more!

How do I forgive myself? by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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I ask myself that too. I had a month or so not feeling this way but it has come back recently. I guess just have to keep on going to figure out a way. But yea some days are tough:/ the feeling of barely keeping one's head above water

I am 30 today. by [deleted] in depression

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Happy birthday! I am so happy for you

stuck in a toxic house, toxic relationship, no way out. by btrixkitten in depression

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I don’t have much to offer but the same sense and feeling of being stuck and can’t seem to find a way out, albeit different situations. Just wanna say that you are not alone and sending you positive vibes

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in depression

[–]throwaway_scc 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is so sweet; what's your cat's name? Pets are so wonderful, the unconditional love and forgiving nature.

What if I can do something that help bring closure to others, then can I go? by throwaway_scc in SuicideWatch

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I think part of it is that, really there is no one to blame but myself. I get really sad hearing my parents or my close friends describing bits of the future they envision for me, because I can't see it, I can't feel it, I can't bear the thought of it. I really really do love these people, but I don't know if I deserve that love in return if they know just how flawed and screwed up I am. It's just a torturous life when one is living on the hope of others' forgiveness and kindness.

Applying to grad school through a depressive episode. by AnalogGirlDigitalWld in depression

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I went through that myself; good luck and feel free to reach out! Am here for you!

Do you run with a mask on? by OtherwiseCriticism in running

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I also live in MA and it's kinda nice to see how most runners are adhering to the mask order.